Story My dad hit me with a knife

[letmeseethedeath]

Just message me if you want. I'm here.

thank you so much

 

[letmeseethedeath]

I'm really really sorry for your situation it sounds horrific. I can't do much but it you need to talk you can always PM me. I really hope things will change for you for the better... hang on in there

thanks for all the support omg i feel so loved

 

[letmeseethedeath]

Okay, here's what my resource replied:

"Dear [TiredHorse],

I am very sorry about your friend's situation, and unfortunately I don't think it is that uncommon in Italy. If he is underage he should contact the Telefono Azzurro [https://www.azzurro.it/] immediately; this is the national hotline for children and adolescents facing physical abuse at home and at school. They also have some online resources and chat forums that might be helpful. Unfortunately there is not yet a national hotline or an organisation specifically devoted to the protection of LGBTQ rights, but this group [http://www.risorselgbti.eu/] seems to be trying to start something like that and I'm sure they would be glad to talk to him if he reached out.

If he is not underage and is facing serious danger at home, then I would actually recommend that he contact the Telefono Rosa [https://www.telefonorosa.it/] - the national hotline for women facing abuse. "Femminicidio"— you can probably guess what that means—is a huge issue in Italy, and this organisation is at the centre of the fight against it as well as many other important feminist initiatives. Though your friend is not a woman, this group is a pretty liberal, open-minded lot (my emphasis --TH) who would probably be glad to help. Among the other resources they provide (including legal assistance and psychological support), they have several "safe homes" where victims of abuse can stay.

Where does your friend live? If he is in a city I might be able to find some local resources he could contact. But it sounds more like a small provincial town if even the police have refused to intervene.

Let me know how things go, and if there is anything else I can do to help.

Best,
X****"

I'll let her know you're in Abruzzo. She might have more specific resources for there.

Hang in there, @letmeseethedeath

i live in a really small country :( anyway thank you so much for helping me, i really appreciate it. also my dad is still being violent to me

 

[TiredHorse]

i live in a really small country :( anyway thank you so much for helping me, i really appreciate it. also my dad is still being violent to me

If you think those organizations might help, if there's a chance, I urge you to contact them. You just want is to be who you are. You are not asking too much!

I'll let you know if my resource offers any more information.

 

[Letmego. Please]

Hey so sorry you are being treated this way by the people that are supposed to love you the most (yes i know its bullshit lol)
You need help my friend, you cannot leave before you have had the chance to live the real you, and it makes me so dam sad that people like yourself feel this way, you have the same right to be who you truly are as the next person.
I really hope you can get some support locally, but i promise you i will never judge, belittle you or show you anything but the greatest of respect so if you never need someone random to talk to I'm here.

I hope you find a way to live, before you find a way to die.

 

[Pulpit2018]

Beyond all thats being said here,i would also say:Stand your ground if you can.Hit back.Make sure they get the message that you will hurt them too and will not tolerate being assaulted.

 

[letmeseethedeath]

Okay, here's what my resource replied:

"Dear [TiredHorse],

I am very sorry about your friend's situation, and unfortunately I don't think it is that uncommon in Italy. If he is underage he should contact the Telefono Azzurro [https://www.azzurro.it/] immediately; this is the national hotline for children and adolescents facing physical abuse at home and at school. They also have some online resources and chat forums that might be helpful. Unfortunately there is not yet a national hotline or an organisation specifically devoted to the protection of LGBTQ rights, but this group [http://www.risorselgbti.eu/] seems to be trying to start something like that and I'm sure they would be glad to talk to him if he reached out.

If he is not underage and is facing serious danger at home, then I would actually recommend that he contact the Telefono Rosa [https://www.telefonorosa.it/] - the national hotline for women facing abuse. "Femminicidio"— you can probably guess what that means—is a huge issue in Italy, and this organisation is at the centre of the fight against it as well as many other important feminist initiatives. Though your friend is not a woman, this group is a pretty liberal, open-minded lot (my emphasis --TH) who would probably be glad to help. Among the other resources they provide (including legal assistance and psychological support), they have several "safe homes" where victims of abuse can stay.

Where does your friend live? If he is in a city I might be able to find some local resources he could contact. But it sounds more like a small provincial town if even the police have refused to intervene.

Let me know how things go, and if there is anything else I can do to help.

Best,
X****"

I'll let her know you're in Abruzzo. She might have more specific resources for there.

Hang in there, @letmeseethedeath

i live in a really small country :( anyway thank you so much for helping me, i really appreciate it. also my dad is still bdo

If you think those organizations might help, if there's a chance, I urge you to contact them. You just want is to be who you are. You are not asking too much!

I'll let you know if my resource offers any more information.

im about to contact them. you know what, i'm so broke, i feel so guilty for not being "normal". so guilty to not just being a girl as it was given to my birth, but also that hurts. i always felt a lil man

 

[letmeseethedeath]

Hey so sorry you are being treated this way by the people that are supposed to love you the most (yes i know its bullshit lol)
You need help my friend, you cannot leave before you have had the chance to live the real you, and it makes me so dam sad that people like yourself feel this way, you have the same right to be who you truly are as the next person.
I really hope you can get some support locally, but i promise you i will never judge, belittle you or show you anything but the greatest of respect so if you never need someone random to talk to I'm here.

I hope you find a way to live, before you find a way to die.

that touched my heart tbh. i'm so grateful for all the support and love you guys are showing to me. i agree with you i can't leave before i have had the chance to be the real me

 

[TiredHorse]

im about to contact them. you know what, i'm so broke, i feel so guilty for not being "normal". so guilty to not just being a girl as it was given to my birth, but also that hurts. i always felt a lil man

I'm very, very relieved that you're going to contact them. I dearly hope they can support you.

You have nothing to be guilty of! You are who you are! A fluke of chance may have denied your physical body a Y-chromosome to match your male soul, but a single chromosome does not make you who you are.

"i agree with you i can't leave before i have had the chance to be the real me"

BRAVO!

I'll let you know if I learn anything more from my resource. Until then --stay strong.

 

[letmeseethedeath]

Beyond all thats being said here,i would also say:Stand your ground if you can.Hit back.Make sure they get the message that you will hurt them too and will not tolerate being assaulted.

yep thank you for the support

 

[letmeseethedeath]

I'm very, very relieved that you're going to contact them. I dearly hope they can support you.

You have nothing to be guilty of! You are who you are! A fluke of chance may have denied your physical body a Y-chromosome to match your male soul, but a single chromosome does not make you who you are.

I'll let you know if I learn anything more from my resource. Until then --stay strong.

that's so truly right omg. i can never thank you for all your help, you the best. i wish i could do something for you, i never received so much support like you did. thank you. i feel so blessed to have been helped by you

 

[letmeseethedeath]

that's the truth

 

[Letmego. Please]

that touched my heart tbh. i'm so grateful for all the support and love you guys are showing to me. i agree with you i can't leave before i have had the chance to be the real me

I am so glad i was of some use, I've seen & met so many people over the years who are desperate and suicidal purely because they are having to live a lie, constantly pressured into fitting in with others wishes of who you should be, all the time silently screaming that is not who i am, but to be honest if its just about 'what would the neighbours think' 'daddy wanting to keep his little girl' whatever it is it is there problem NOT yours, so please don't let them make you think its something you have done.

I hope you are able to find some support, either locally or online and to most of all get you to the point where being the real you is reality.

I will be thinking of you.

 

[letmeseethedeath]

I am so glad i was of some use, I've seen & met so many people over the years who are desperate and suicidal purely because they are having to live a lie, constantly pressured into fitting in with others wishes of who you should be, all the time silently screaming that is not who i am, but to be honest if its just about 'what would the neighbours think' 'daddy wanting to keep his little girl' whatever it is it is there problem NOT yours, so please don't let them make you think its something you have done.

I hope you are able to find some support, either locally or online and to most of all get you to the point where being the real you is reality.

I will be thinking of you.

that made me cry, omg i really feel so loved and understandable. you really can feel me. from what you say I understand that you are an authentic and sincere person, you are talking with your heart in your hand and your words are now so good for me. unfortunately i didn't find an helpful way to escape.. it hurts, i feel in a cage. i'm trapped in this body and nobody cares or wants me to change, they will kill me

 

[Letmego. Please]

that made me cry, omg i really feel so loved and understandable. you really can feel me. from what you say I understand that you are an authentic and sincere person, you are talking with your heart in your hand and your words are now so good for me. unfortunately i didn't find an helpful way to escape.. it hurts, i feel in a cage. i'm trapped in this body and nobody cares or wants me to change, they will kill me

I promise you everything i say is sincere and meant only as a way of trying to help you find you, i understand that this is a very difficult time for you and i wish i could be of some praticial use but i'm a few too many oceans away.
At the end of the day it is your body, you are the only one who that should matter too.

It takes courage to leave this world & it takes courage to step out into the world as the person you need to be, i'd suggest the latter is better as you still have options going forward.
Take care my friend

 

[letmeseethedeath]

I promise you everything i say is sincere and meant only as a way of trying to help you find you, i understand that this is a very difficult time for you and i wish i could be of some praticial use but i'm a few too many oceans away.
At the end of the day it is your body, you are the only one who that should matter too.

It takes courage to leave this world & it takes courage to step out into the world as the person you need to be, i'd suggest the latter is better as you still have options going forward.
Take care my friend

really thank you

 

[Hopeless_soul]

Hope you could receive/are receiving help. I'm sorry you have to undergo such a horrific situation. Keep strong. Hugs.

 

[letmeseethedeath]

Hope you could receive/are receiving help. I'm sorry you have to undergo such a horrific situation. Keep strong. Hugs.

unfortunately no help received, i'm just trying to take some courage to ctb because i can't live anymore like this. plus my health it's not good, i'm always sick

 

[Hopeless_soul]

Did you try to contact any of the resources TiredHorse give you? I'm sorry if they couldn't be of any help. There must a way for you to escape that situation...

 

[Dead_Inside]

That is so horrible. I am so sorry....
I can't imagine what you live through. I am really sorry. I can't believe anyone would hurt their child like that.
I had a lot of physical abuse in my childhood so I can relate a tiny bit. My stepdad just thought I was literally fucking up his new life with my mother.... so I can empathize with shitty parents in a small way.
You are loved here- I know it's not much help to you when you are alone and so far from anyone being able to help you .... but you have my love and care. Be safe and kind to yourself. Don't let this world turn you against yourself- suicide is Just an escape from here.

 

[Darrenloses]

I'm sorry to hear what you're going through. I had trichotillomania before too. I specifically pulled my eyelashes out, I've come to control it now. I do get urges but I resist. I had an abusive dad growing up too, he knows I'd beat the shit out of him in this day and age now though.

 

[letmeseethedeath]

Did you try to contact any of the resources TiredHorse give you? I'm sorry if they couldn't be of any help. There must a way for you to escape that situation...

they didn't helped me because i'm 23 :(

 

[letmeseethedeath]

That is so horrible. I am so sorry....
I can't imagine what you live through. I am really sorry. I can't believe anyone would hurt their child like that.
I had a lot of physical abuse in my childhood so I can relate a tiny bit. My stepdad just thought I was literally fucking up his new life with my mother.... so I can empathize with shitty parents in a small way.
You are loved here- I know it's not much help to you when you are alone and so far from anyone being able to help you .... but you have my love and care. Be safe and kind to yourself. Don't let this world turn you against yourself- suicide is Just an escape from here.

thank you so much even though i'm far from all of you trust me you all know how to show love to me, so i have to thank you

 

[letmeseethedeath]

I'm sorry to hear what you're going through. I had trichotillomania before too. I specifically pulled my eyelashes out, I've come to control it now. I do get urges but I resist. I had an abusive dad growing up too, he knows I'd beat the shit out of him in this day and age now though.

omg me too, i try to control it but sometimes i have the urge to do it, it become the best part in my day ew

 

[Hopeless_soul]

they didn't helped me because i'm 23 :(

Oh. Sorry to hear that.