My CTB plan.

[amor.dor]

My plan: I will fast for 12 hours. I won't need antiemetics, and I have already measured the dose of SN. I have sleeping pills and will take them, so that I am unable to ask for help and lose consciousness quickly. 5 pills are enough to make me extremely lethargic, and I think this time I won't be able to be saved. I hope so... But first, I will try to schedule some emails to be sent in a week to a few people.

I feel sorry for my brother, but I think I can no longer go on in life. All things have pushed me down so hard and crushed me with such force that I don't think I will ever be able to get up again. I miss my ex who completed CTB so much, I always regret not having done it with him...

If someone can help me with how to schedule emails... To tell the truth, I don't know what I should write. I think if I die and leave nothing written, it will take a long time for my family to be notified. I just want to cease to exist, for my body to disappear... That way I would just be considered missing and my family would think I'm just out there living.

My mind in moments of despair doesn't make me anxious, it makes me apathetic and I hate that, because I can't kill myself, because my mind thinks I can go on and that everything is fine... holy fucking shit is my mind sometimes, that seems to forbid me from killing myself.And thinks I can handle fighting all the demons of hell.

 

[coldkittypaws]

im not sure how to schedule emails for a later time but im sorry that life has been cruel to you & that suicide is your only way of relief.
but since your mind is set on it, i wish you the best <33

 

[raybd]

If you are using gmail, there's an arrow and a drop-down menu if you click on the send to set a time. Is that what you are asking about? Or do you mean something else by scheduling emails?

 

[deadngoresurgery]

My plan: I will fast for 12 hours. I won't need antiemetics, and I have already measured the dose of SN. I have sleeping pills and will take them, so that I am unable to ask for help and lose consciousness quickly. 5 pills are enough to make me extremely lethargic, and I think this time I won't be able to be saved. I hope so... But first, I will try to schedule some emails to be sent in a week to a few people.

I feel sorry for my brother, but I think I can no longer go on in life. All things have pushed me down so hard and crushed me with such force that I don't think I will ever be able to get up again. I miss my ex who completed CTB so much, I always regret not having done it with him...

If someone can help me with how to schedule emails... To tell the truth, I don't know what I should write. I think if I die and leave nothing written, it will take a long time for my family to be notified. I just want to cease to exist, for my body to disappear... That way I would just be considered missing and my family would think I'm just out there living.

My mind in moments of despair doesn't make me anxious, it makes me apathetic and I hate that, because I can't kill myself, because my mind thinks I can go on and that everything is fine... holy fucking shit is my mind sometimes, that seems to forbid me from killing myself.And thinks I can handle fighting all the demons of hell.

which sleeping pills do you use?

 

[amor.dor]

which sleeping pills do you use?

cyclobenzaprine,I take one pill and it makes me very sleepy and weak, with five I sleep for a whole day, I'm very weak when it comes to medication.

 

[deadngoresurgery]

cyclobenzaprine,I take one pill and it makes me very sleepy and weak, with five I sleep for a whole day, I'm very weak when it comes to medication.

oh ok, thank you! i might just use these so i can ctb easier if i do. how did you obtain it? and i hope you have a great day :)

 

[raybd]

cyclobenzaprine,I take one pill and it makes me very sleepy and weak, with five I sleep for a whole day, I'm very weak when it comes to medication.

Cyclobenzaprine (Flexeril) is a muscle relaxant. Not a sleeping pill. A lot of any muscle relaxant will leave you sleepy. Even sufficient Ibuprofen (adult dose is 2000mg/day - try 1.5x or 2.0x) is enough to cause sufficient sleep. Or even Diclofenac Sodium 2X 100. Will leave sufficiently woozy for the 15 minutes before LOC.

 

[amor.dor]

A ciclobenzaprina (Flexeril) é um relaxante muscular, não um sonífero. Uma dose alta de qualquer relaxante muscular causa sonolência. Mesmo uma dose suficiente de ibuprofeno (a dose para adultos é de 2000 mg/dia - experimente 1,5x ou 2,0x) é suficiente para induzir um sono profundo. Ou até mesmo diclofenaco sódico 2x 100 mg. Isso deixará você suficientemente sonolento durante os 15 minutos que antecedem a perda de consciência.

thank u, Every time I take one pill, I feel lethargic all day.

 

[plan c]

oww. hey. are u still with us?
spending ur last hours alone must soak u in ceaseless loneliness. this is a reminder that there are listeners here if u wish to talk. i dunno too much about ur stories but im not casting u aside bc u're on ur way to the other side.