Help My city is too safe, what do i do

[ayeperson]

Live in Hong Kong, a really safe city. Need something, a method, really easy to get things for and actually do in my room or just somewhere, but it can't really be jumping or using a gun or certain drugs as those things aren't really available to me. So what can I try?

 

[Hysteria]

I wish I could help you, but I have the same problem. I live in Budapest, Hungary. It isn't as safe as Hong Kong, but I can't find a method. A year ago, I would say Night Night, a method I attempted to execute myself in a hotel room, but I couldn't pull it through. At least, Hong Kong has high buildings. If I lived in Hong Kong, I might choose to jump.

 

[Monad]

If I were in your position, I would probably opt for SN if I could get my hands on it or hanging. Hanging isn't the best way to go but it has a decent success rate and is fairly easy.

 

[FuneralCry]

I also just wish for an accessible painless method, it feels so cruel to me how it's so difficult to be permanently free from this existence, I wish there's the option to just simply die in peace. But anyway I wish you the best, I hope that you find the freedom you search for.

 

[Hysteria]

If I were in your position, I would probably opt for SN if I could get my hands on it or hanging. Hanging isn't the best way to go but it has a decent success rate and is fairly easy.

I started to doubt hanging when I failed Night Night. Similar to Night Night, hanging is supposed to break the blood circulation to your brain. However, every time I tried it, I could only break my breathing, not the blood circulation. Everything was fine, up to a shift in consciousness. I could feel my head expanding, the world slowly fading away and entering a dream-like state, but somewhere, I was stuck in this state. It wasn't deep enough not to feel how my body wanted to force breathing. The convulsions and pain were unbearable to me. Maybe I responded negatively to such attempts because I live with chronic pain. I am in constant suffering, and anything extra quickly compounds into unbearable.

 

[NegevChina]

Live in Hong Kong, a really safe city. Need something, a method, really easy to get things for and actually do in my room or just somewhere, but it can't really be jumping or using a gun or certain drugs as those things aren't really available to me. So what can I try?

From what I've considered for my self there is CO poissoning, and lately I'm considering this new idea that requires easy to source items, the CO2 method. It is not very popular or talked about but you need a few supplies like baking soda, Citrix acid and a bag.

 

[Hysteria]

From what I've considered for my self there is CO poissoning, and lately I'm considering this new idea that requires easy to source items, the CO2 method. It is not very popular or talked about but you need a few supplies like baking soda, Citrix acid and a bag.

Can you tell me a little more about the CO2 method? It's something I would be interested in.

 

[NegevChina]

There's a few threads with details about this method. If you generate more that 30% CO2 in a bag and secure it around your neck you will pass out after a few seconds. death occurs after few minutes. Though its not completely peaceful because the few seconds till passing out are distressful and may be painful.
Here are some threads about it. The first one includes an article about a success story:

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/thre...-baking-soda-citric-acid.186524/#post-2759776
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/co2-bag-almost-got-it-figured-out.188189/

 

[Hysteria]

There's a few threads with details about this method. If you generate more that 30% CO2 in a bag and secure it around your neck you will pass out after a few seconds. death occurs after few minutes. Though its not completely peaceful because the few seconds till passing out are distressful and may be painful.
Here are some threads about it. The first one includes an article about a success story:

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/thre...-baking-soda-citric-acid.186524/#post-2759776
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/co2-bag-almost-got-it-figured-out.188189/

I see. Thank you very much! I'm afraid of clawing off the bag and surviving with brain damage. I read you can claw the bag off even if you are already unconscious. I already have negative experiences with my tolerance to distress and pain. Maybe, if could attempt it by injecting some drugs before to cope with the distress and pain, but even in that case, I'd be afraid of the unconscious bag clawing.

 

[NegevChina]

I see. Thank you very much! I'm afraid of clawing off the bag and surviving with brain damage. I read you can claw the bag off even if you are already unconscious. I already have negative experiences with my tolerance to distress and pain. Maybe, if could attempt it by injecting some drugs before to cope with the distress and pain, but even in that case, I'd be afraid of the unconscious bag clawing.

I didnt know about it. its something to consider. No method is fail proof. My other option is jumping but that could go horribly wrong and leave me injured and suffering.

 

[Hysteria]

I didnt know about it. its something to consider. No method is fail proof. My other option is jumping but that could go horribly wrong and leave me injured and suffering.

For a long, I considered jumping, specifically defenestration, my secondary method. Unfortunately, I live with acrophobia. So, usually, my survival instinct kicks in before reaching the height. If I imagine a high place, I already feel fear. It is difficult enough for me to watch videos about high places. Maybe, with drugs, I could cope with acrophobia. But if I can go as far as getting drugs, I might choose a more reliable method. With so much effort, I might as well learn how to control inert gases.

 

[NegevChina]

For a long, I considered jumping, specifically defenestration, my secondary method. Unfortunately, I live with acrophobia. So, usually, my survival instinct kicks in before reaching the height. If I imagine a high place, I already feel fear. It is difficult enough for me to watch videos about high places. Maybe, with drugs, I could cope with acrophobia. But if I can go as far as getting drugs, I might choose a more reliable method. With so much effort, I might as well learn how to control inert gases.

I'm lucky to not have fear of heights, I'll only have to deal with SI and fear of failure because I only have access to 9th floor. Inert gases would have been my first choice if only I could obtain them. Absolutely 0 suffering and most peaceful death on the planet. If I had access to these I would have had my peace already. Some people on this forum have been lucky enough to create decent exit bags.

 

[Hysteria]

I'm lucky to not have fear of heights, I'll only have to deal with SI and fear of failure because I only have access to 9th floor. Inert gases would have been my first choice if only I could obtain them. Absolutely 0 suffering and most peaceful death on the planet. If I had access to these I would have had my peace already. Some people on this forum have been lucky enough to create decent exit bags.

Access to Nitrogen is so hard. I couldn't find it even on the dark web. I found drugs faster than gases. I wonder what alternative gases I could use.

 

[NegevChina]

Access to Nitrogen is so hard. I couldn't find it even on the dark web. I found drugs faster than gases. I wonder what alternative gases I could use.

It could have been Helium that is used for inflating balloons. I can easily order tanks of helium for parties. Problem is they are supplied with 20% oxygen for safety reasons.

 

[Hysteria]

How far did you go, ayeperson? Did you figure out a method?

I also just wish for an accessible painless method, it feels so cruel to me how it's so difficult to be permanently free from this existence, I wish there's the option to just simply die in peace. But anyway I wish you the best, I hope that you find the freedom you search for.

I wish I could go to sleep and never wake up. I hate mornings when I have to return to this reality. I wish I could chill in my dream while my physical body somehow dies.

It could have been Helium that is used for inflating balloons. I can easily order tanks of helium for parties. Problem is they are supplied with 20% oxygen for safety reasons.

How much does Helium cost where you live? The helium canister I found, 10l, 200bar, 99,9999% purity, costs ~$1000. It's a bit steep compared to Hungarian salaries (Average $500 monthly).

 

[NegevChina]

How much does Helium cost where you live? The helium canister I found, 10l, 200bar, 99,9999% purity, costs ~$1000. It's a bit steep compared to Hungarian salaries (Average $500 monthly).

That is very pricy! I did not search for a canister like you found because it is probably more hard to find than Nitrogen. For the party balloon tank its about $50 for 430L. But that's not pure so its worth nothing for me.

 

[Hysteria]

party balloon tank

I found party balloon tanks for $77, but I don't understand if it's $1000 in one place or why it is only $77 in the other place. Both offers are around 10l, 99% purity.

 

[NegevChina]

I found party balloon tanks for $77, but I don't understand if it's $1000 in one place or why it is only $77 in the other place. Both offers are around 10l, 99% purity.

Perhaps the pressure and quality of tank is much higher in the expensive ones and the volume of the compressed Helium is bigger. Anyway if the party balloon tank was 99% pure I could have used it. I could have easily tested its purity too by simple trial.

 

[Hysteria]

Perhaps the pressure and quality of tank is much higher in the expensive ones and the volume of the compressed Helium is bigger. Anyway if the party balloon tank was 99% pure I could have used it. I could have easily tested its purity too by simple trial.

Most likely, I'll open a thread about the tank I found and ask people what additional parts I need to build the setup. It is so complicated.

 

[ayeperson]

No, even such methods are difficult for me to obtain due to strict legal polices. As for jumping, all areas are secured and it's difficult to even try. I'm sick and tired of all of this. Why can't I just do it? At least something. No one understands living everyday like this.

 

[eliosilver99]

See if you can import SN? There are Polish sites you can get it from, and this "DMC" I keep hearing about. Otherwise.. maybe a train, or a fast highway?