landslide2
Arcanist
- May 6, 2024
- 413
so proud of you nevertheless <3I hate this disease. After learning I have it, it feels like i have every symptom imaginable. Today I've been in pain and fatigued. Unfortunately, today was the day of a gig with my band (which is probably going to be my last show I do with them before I go through treatment). Show was going pretty good up until the middle of the show, when I got a sharp pain in my abdomen. I couldn't finish the song we were play. I went back stage and we had to cut the rest of the show. I feel so fucking useless. I've never been so embarrassed in my life. I wanna CTB so bad rn but I'm not going to.
I just saw a clip online of a performance that was cut short because the lead singer took too many drugs and started to beat up the bandmates for no reason. Having to leave stage because of pains from cancer is infinitely more understandable than getting so high you start bludgeoning the bassist. Cut yourself some slack and be proud you made it halfway!!I hate this disease. After learning I have it, it feels like i have every symptom imaginable. Today I've been in pain and fatigued. Unfortunately, today was the day of a gig with my band (which is probably going to be my last show I do with them before I go through treatment). Show was going pretty good up until the middle of the show, when I got a sharp pain in my abdomen. I couldn't finish the song we were play. I went back stage and we had to cut the rest of the show. I feel so fucking useless. I've never been so embarrassed in my life. I wanna CTB so bad rn but I'm not going to.