I can't stop having dreams about me meeting a girl and enjoying life, making jokes, laughing together...
This is just worse than any nightmare, I'd rather have nightmares than this.
It's been 3 days in a row now and it's killing me, I feel so bad because my brain is showing me a picture of life that could be good, but then I wake up on the reality of my life. Alone and fail.
Loneliness feeling kicks in and it's extremely hard to cope with it.
To be clear I don't want a life like that, but my brain is tricking me on thinking that this is the way to go, and make me feel bad because I'm not doing it.
I wonder if this is something related to my biological instinct to breed.
I hate my brain and my human instincts.
This is just worse than any nightmare, I'd rather have nightmares than this.
It's been 3 days in a row now and it's killing me, I feel so bad because my brain is showing me a picture of life that could be good, but then I wake up on the reality of my life. Alone and fail.
Loneliness feeling kicks in and it's extremely hard to cope with it.
To be clear I don't want a life like that, but my brain is tricking me on thinking that this is the way to go, and make me feel bad because I'm not doing it.
I wonder if this is something related to my biological instinct to breed.
I hate my brain and my human instincts.
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