Discussion Morality on catching the train?

[vxtxmxn]

I'm curious as to how others feel about this method. In my research, this seems to be the most effective, most reliable, most readily accessible way to go. Albeit fucking terrifying if you've ever experienced standing inches away from a freight train traveling near 70mph (~110kmh).

Besides accessibility, my biggest trouble in finding a method was the effect such a way would have on others. Minimizing harm caused is a must for me. I understand there will be a degree of harm which is unavoidable - environmental, economical, personal. However, based on what is available to me, I feel just in what I've narrowed my options down to.

There is a relatively slow track that carries freight primarily that I've been eyeballing. Actually, I've spent two days, going on my third, sitting here building up the courage and justifying it to myself. The idea is if I cover myself in a layer to appear as someone's dump or some other hazard, it will save the engineer the initial trauma of witnessing someone get hit.

I intend to do it in the dead of night so they will have less time to react to the 'hazard', as well as due to the lower traffic this section of rails experiences during that time.

I highly suspect the engineer will eventually find out, whether seeing themselves or being told, and I see that to be the harm that is unavoidable. But sparing having to witness that in real time, I would think they could move past it much sooner and easier.

Please, do leave your thoughts. If my sense of morality is fucked, say it. If it seems reasonable, let me know. I'm not dead-set in this method, although I have dedicated several days now to understanding its impact.

 

[Forveleth]

In my research, this seems to be the most effective, most reliable, most readily accessible way to go... Minimizing harm caused is a must for me.

If you did your research into this method, then you will know this will most likely greatly affect the conductor. That is not minimizing harm. You say that some harm will come no matter what, which is true in a sense. But there is a large difference between an EMS worker dealing with a dead body found in a bedroom than a train conductor watching a body explode on the front of their locomotive.

The idea is if I cover myself in a layer to appear as someone's dump or some other hazard, it will save the engineer the initial trauma of witnessing someone get hit.

If you appear to be a hazard on the tracks, they will most likely stop the train to avoid derailment, no?

I intend to do it in the dead of night so they will have less time to react to the 'hazard', as well as due to the lower traffic this section of rails experiences during that time.

Trains have giant, bright lights on the front of them to light up the track. They are going to see you.

I highly suspect the engineer will eventually find out, whether seeing themselves or being told, and I see that to be the harm that is unavoidable. But sparing having to witness that in real time, I would think they could move past it much sooner and easier.

How do you think they are going to feel thinking they just ran over some trash only to find out later it was a body. A living body. Now they are the reason the body is no longer living. Sounds horrible to me.

If my sense of morality is fucked, say it.

It is fucked. There are plenty of stories out there from train conductors who have hit people and are not the same after. This is transferring your trauma/depression/mental problems to someone else which is, to me, one of the worst things you could do to a human being.

I am all for the right to end your life on your own terms but I strongly believe you should absolutely never make another human your unwitting accomplice.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I think any method is fair game as long as it doesn't injure anyone else physically in the process. This is not an affirmation that all methods are valid, or should be attempted.

 

[vxtxmxn]

If you appear to be a hazard on the tracks, they will most likely stop the train to avoid derailment, no? ... Trains have giant, bright lights on the front of them to light up the track.

I would be amazed if they could stop a roughly 5 million pound vehicle traveling at 70mph in less than half a mile.

It is fucked

I understand what you're saying and agree, it's what I want to avoid. I don't like to have considered it an option, but judging what few other options are available to me, it seemed to be the most justifiable.

I think any method is fair game as long as it doesn't injure anyone else physically in the process. This is not an affirmation that all methods are valid, or should be attempted.

It sucks to have such easy access to a vehicle but know that I can't take advantage of it without harming someone else or the environment.

 

[Darkover]

Government restrict peaceful suicide methods leaving us with the more brutal ones to deal with. You're not allowed to live comfortably, and you're not allowed to die peacefully either, every method and tactic is fair gain in this scenario

 

[Forveleth]

I would be amazed if they could stop a roughly 5 million pound vehicle traveling at 70mph in less than half a mile.

There is a relatively slow track that carries freight primarily that I've been eyeballing.

These two statements are in conflict with one another unless you think 70mph is slow.