Part of me is used to be so scared of what i'm usually doing. I'm the one that maked the plans, takes risks, requiers risk taking with no way back, requests basic respect in any relationship, so i'm the one who cuts people off. For an year or two, and latetely, i cut so many people off our life and kind of thinking to do so with our most "closest" ones. This part of me freaks out, i know i have a point in doing so. I know that not doing so is stupid and not worthy at all. But really cutting all those toxic stuff out - ment to cut all of this part's few left contacts and relatives. I know it's too much. And i can't find a way to explain that there is a reson, why most of our life is erased and why people, who stucked there are toxic and need to be erased too. I'm just little concerned that as protector i might do some damage, no matter the intentions.