Since my last post regarding the police visit I got after buying SN, there have been no further visits. I still have my SN package and recently managed to get Meto. I have been preparing, I quit my job and have been sorting my finances. Funny enough the easiest thing to buy, antiacids, I only bought today.
I have SN the correct percentage strength and enough for 2 cups, paracetamol, 2 diazepam tablets and Rennie (antiacid)
I dont think the 48 hour method work for me so going for the stat dose.
Method: last meal by 10pm.
8am next morning 1 hour before SN 1000mg paracetamol. 15 minutes later 30mg Meto. 15 minutes later double dose of Rennie
15 minutes later Drink SN (25g in water) 2nd cup available incase im sick
When would be the best time to take diazepam?
I read in another thread about the process actually taking longer, up to a whole day. I live by myself so there is no way of me being found. I foster cats and they will have food, water, litter boxes in another room. My bedroom door will be shut. I will send a message to be delivered 5/6 hours after taking SN to the charity I foster with so they can arrange to collect the cats. I have a keysafe box so they will be able to get in.
I read in another thread that I will probably get confused- will I be aware enough to NOT know to leave my room? I dont want to scare the cats or be found outside my room.
Finally thankyou, I probably would have been considering a more lethal and dangerous method. The first ever attempt I made, I was a child. There have been many attempts since then. Im nearly 30 and in a strange way, I wanted to believe the whole "things will get better" narrative preached to me as a child but I knew they wouldnt. I knew as I got older, id get sicker and more self aware which has made life feel like a gaping wound that has no known treatment. When I finally finished shopping for this method, I cried so much. Relief but also fear. I dont know what will happen or how much the process will hurt.
I have SN the correct percentage strength and enough for 2 cups, paracetamol, 2 diazepam tablets and Rennie (antiacid)
I dont think the 48 hour method work for me so going for the stat dose.
Method: last meal by 10pm.
8am next morning 1 hour before SN 1000mg paracetamol. 15 minutes later 30mg Meto. 15 minutes later double dose of Rennie
15 minutes later Drink SN (25g in water) 2nd cup available incase im sick
When would be the best time to take diazepam?
I read in another thread about the process actually taking longer, up to a whole day. I live by myself so there is no way of me being found. I foster cats and they will have food, water, litter boxes in another room. My bedroom door will be shut. I will send a message to be delivered 5/6 hours after taking SN to the charity I foster with so they can arrange to collect the cats. I have a keysafe box so they will be able to get in.
I read in another thread that I will probably get confused- will I be aware enough to NOT know to leave my room? I dont want to scare the cats or be found outside my room.
Finally thankyou, I probably would have been considering a more lethal and dangerous method. The first ever attempt I made, I was a child. There have been many attempts since then. Im nearly 30 and in a strange way, I wanted to believe the whole "things will get better" narrative preached to me as a child but I knew they wouldnt. I knew as I got older, id get sicker and more self aware which has made life feel like a gaping wound that has no known treatment. When I finally finished shopping for this method, I cried so much. Relief but also fear. I dont know what will happen or how much the process will hurt.
