I think I'm well and truly fucked up in the head. I've been watching ctb videos and I don't feel anything except excitement that it will be me soon. When I see how quick, brutal and effective some methods are, I can't wait to do it myself. I feel nothing for the people in the videos anymore. I sort of feel jealous of them though.
Reading posts on here used to make me feel sad and guilty then felt disgusted once I started to watch videos too. These days, I don't feel much at all, no matter how graphic, have become so detached from humanity.
Does anyone watch ctb videos or other gore, how do you feel about it ?
Reading posts on here used to make me feel sad and guilty then felt disgusted once I started to watch videos too. These days, I don't feel much at all, no matter how graphic, have become so detached from humanity.
Does anyone watch ctb videos or other gore, how do you feel about it ?
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