I enjoy hitting myself the face.

[cacowads]

I enjoy hitting myself in the face Daniel Larson style. I don't do it in public, but I have urges to. I feel so angry that I exist. I feel so angry that I have to deal with my human shell. Sometimes in college I deliberately leave class and head to the bathroom so I could just hit my head or my arm with a quick slug. I'm geniuely insane that I literally plan when and where I'd damage myself.
To be honest watching clips of Daniel Larson are the only source of entertainment I enjoy now. Everything feels disgusting. I feel angry at myself

 

[wishmaster9]

Had to google what you were referring to and I'll admit I do that too, but I try to avoid hitting my head and face to not worry nosy strangers (tbh I would too, get worried and ask if help is needed if I saw someone outside with visible bruises on their face, even if they're a stranger). When I do hit myself by hand I hit every part that can be hidden by clothes.
If I feel the need to hit my head, I bang it against my bed's wooden headboard and I always suffer from extreme headaches and nausea afterwards because I don't hold myself back and go as hard as possible. I've been doing that for years now as part of autistic meltdowns, but I was only able to understand the connection between the two during the last year. I assume brain damage has been done a long time ago, at least on some level.
Please try to stay safe, this is just another form of self harm and it's addicting as well, even if we can't pinpoint the moment it starts getting out of hand.

 

[3rdworldsadness]

I don't know who is Daniel Larson and Search it, it was a guy standing on the corner? Haha! And I am so angry too that I exists. Moreover, I hate god and my parents so much for bringing in this hell... everyday is so difficult. I just can't. I don't hit myself as I feel like I'm in permanent frozen state. Where I just froze and everything goes blank it's a tactic for my survival. I don't know how long I can survive...

 

[endboss]

I also hit myself. When I wake up in the morning to the nightmare reality that I've caused with my stupidity, I often start to hit myself in the head or choke myself. Sometimes I hit my legs or arms with my fists. Once I hit my legs so hard, that I wasn't able to walk for several days and I had to take pain medication to be able to sleep. I also stab my arms with a sharp ballpoint pen. The reason I hurt myself, is because I feel I must punish myself for bad decisions from years ago that make my life so unbearable today. I am going to ctb because me (and a bunch of doctors) simply fucked up. Now there is no way out. 1-2 bad decisions and a fate worse than death.. if i only could take them back.. Now I must suffer every day until the insane noises in my head make me kms. Not much time left I think.