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[timetodie24]

I know no one believes me .
But soon I promise you all will see
The world is already shifting and there will be a complete system reset when I die.
Disasters are coming but I will stop the ones that have been caused by my existence.
Once I step into the highway, the whole world will understand the system.
You may think it's all BS now but that's because you haven't seen.
But you will.
And you will be relieved but angry at me for risking the system in the first place.
I am sorry but I don't expect forgiveness.

 

[Darkover]

nobody believes me because what your asking people to believe is just pure delusional

it's like me saying if i don't die tonight by 12 o'clock the whole world will end
it's clearly aload of delusional bs

 

[SVEN]

You don't need any forgiveness from me, TtD, you have done me no harm, you obviously care for us all to torment yourself by your genuine belief that you damage us by your being. You don't. We like you. Be kind to your tormented self, unmet friend.

 

[timetodie24]

nobody believes me because what your asking people to believe is just pure delusional

it's like me saying if i don't die tonight by 12 o'clock the whole world will end
it's clearly aload of delusional bs

Like I said, you won't believe now but you will see. Delusions don't have evidence to support it, I have evidence and you'll understand it time. Everyone will.

 

[CantDoIt]

Have you really thought this through? Maybe you are being tricked into thinking you need to die to reset the system.

 

[timetodie24]

Have you really thought this through? Maybe you are being tricked into thinking you need to die to reset the system.

I have fully thought it through, considered all my options, the pros and cons, consequences, alternative views, professionals views etc.
I'm not that easily led or naive, I am confident in the truth and my plan.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I know I can't convince you otherwise. I don't 100% know you aren't right even. Who knows if this isn't some weird system run world with a few key individuals? Seems unlikely to me though to be honest.

I do however 100% believe that this world was unfair and full of suffering long before you were alive and it will continue to be unfair and full of suffering long after you and everyone else here has died.

Some people actually do physically cause the suffering of others. You don't sound like that sort of person. Personally, I just can't see how you being alive has caused problems for so many. My major problems started 41 years ago. Were you even born then? I don't hold you responsible for any of the shit that happened in my life anyway. I expect my problems and everyone elses to remain- no matter what you do. No matter how many people decide to 'sacrifice' themselves. That's my feeling anyhow.

The awful part of this is- I think you may well hurt yourself one day and possibly others for nothing ultimately. I suppose you'll be free of this awful burden but, I'm not 100% convinced you actually want to die. I'm sorry but, WTF is the NHS actually doing to help you?!! It doesn't sound effective. Whatever they're doing! The worst of it all is, you sound like such a lovely person. You don't deserve whatever is happening to you.

 

[NoPoint2Life]

None of us will ever be mad at you. There is nothing to forgive.
I hope you are having a better day today.

 

[timetodie24]

I know I can't convince you otherwise. I don't 100% know you aren't right even. Who knows if this isn't some weird system run world with a few key individuals? Seems unlikely to me though to be honest.

I do however 100% believe that this world was unfair and full of suffering long before you were alive and it will continue to be unfair and full of suffering long after you and everyone else here has died.

Some people actually do physically cause the suffering of others. You don't sound like that sort of person. Personally, I just can't see how you being alive has caused problems for so many. My major problems started 41 years ago. Were you even born then? I don't hold you responsible for any of the shit that happened in my life anyway. I expect my problems and everyone elses to remain- no matter what you do. No matter how many people decide to 'sacrifice' themselves. That's my feeling anyhow.

The awful part of this is- I think you may well hurt yourself one day and possibly others for nothing ultimately. I suppose you'll be free of this awful burden but, I'm not 100% convinced you actually want to die. I'm sorry but, WTF is the NHS actually doing to help you?!! It doesn't sound effective. Whatever they're doing! The worst of it all is, you sound like such a lovely person. You don't deserve whatever is happening to you.

the glitch wasn't my birth (24 years ago) it was surviving my death date (1 year ago) . That's when bad things started to happening because of me.
Of course terrible things happen every day, and did long before, and will long after me , I agree with you on that.
But I'm talking about whole world ending if I don't die.
I don't blame nhs at all, getting support was slow and lots of going round in circles. But once i started with my current team they have been great and trying their best. But the system is just too powerful for them.
I really hope no one blames them for my ctb as it is not their fault and this will save them too

 

[chester]

I'm talking about whole world ending

Am I the only one who wouldn't like this to be prevented?

 

[DeadNotSleeping]

Like I said, you won't believe now but you will see. Delusions don't have evidence to support it, I have evidence and you'll understand it time. Everyone will.

Can you share your evidence with us?

 

[alltoomuch2]

the glitch wasn't my birth (24 years ago) it was surviving my death date (1 year ago) . That's when bad things started to happening because of me.
Of course terrible things happen every day, and did long before, and will long after me , I agree with you on that.
But I'm talking about whole world ending if I don't die.
I don't blame nhs at all, getting support was slow and lots of going round in circles. But once i started with my current team they have been great and trying their best. But the system is just too powerful for them.
I really hope no one blames them for my ctb as it is not their fault and this will save them too

I've posted on your other thread, but the evidence is in, the challenge is won. I'm here. I'm fine. Fit and well. The system must be lying about what it can do because it can't even get rid of me, just one person. If the system is as powerful a it says it is it would have got rid of me ages ago when we first started talking. But it hasn't. I'm absolutely fine. Please phone your EIP team and tell them the system is becoming more insistent. What harm could that do? I think you owe it to them to tell them because the public and their managers are going to blame them if you ctb. So will the driver and the people who see it happen. And such a brutal method. Those people will never be the same again. We have proof now that the system, despite what it says, can't even hurt one person (me) so how can it do worse than that? You are a good caring person and you need to stay. More people will be hurt if you ctb than if you live. Call your EIP team this morning. Talk it over with them. They'll know what to do. They'll have known other people with similar dilemmas. Some of the team may have experienced what you're going through in the past. Stay here. Be here. Trust the evidence of me being here. Xxxx

 

[timetodie24]

Can you share your evidence with us?

I was warned if I broke rules - family/friends would get ill, hurt or die . I broke rules and specifics they warned did happen.
I have photos of helicopters following me and others around me confirmed seeing some of them so that's not in my head.
I pulled a mircochip out of my finger, woke up with unexplained injection marks too.
There is more I can't go into.
But the above shows the system didn't lie so I believe them.

I've posted on your other thread, but the evidence is in, the challenge is won. I'm here. I'm fine. Fit and well. The system must be lying about what it can do because it can't even get rid of me, just one person. If the system is as powerful a it says it is it would have got rid of me ages ago when we first started talking. But it hasn't. I'm absolutely fine. Please phone your EIP team and tell them the system is becoming more insistent. What harm could that do? I think you owe it to them to tell them because the public and their managers are going to blame them if you ctb. So will the driver and the people who see it happen. And such a brutal method. Those people will never be the same again. We have proof now that the system, despite what it says, can't even hurt one person (me) so how can it do worse than that? You are a good caring person and you need to stay. More people will be hurt if you ctb than if you live. Call your EIP team this morning. Talk it over with them. They'll know what to do. They'll have known other people with similar dilemmas. Some of the team may have experienced what you're going through in the past. Stay here. Be here. Trust the evidence of me being here. Xxxx

I really do appreciate all your support that has gone way above and beyond expected on here.
I'm so glad you're safe and here atm and I'm sorry but that's not enough.
It never directly threatened people on here anyway.
The team do already know about things escalating and system becoming more insistent etc. so I have nothing else to say to them really.
Yes my method causes harm but for the greater good.
I don't want to be here anyway, makes little difference doing it in way I wouldn't have chose if same end result.
There really is no other choice, I'm sorry, and I really do appreciate all your suggestions and compassion

 

[Whale_bones]

I'm sorry you're dealing with so much right now. I'm glad you're still around each time I see a thread from you, because I don't ever want anyone else (whether that be another person, or an entity like the system) to make the choice of CTB for you. It's 100% your right to choose if, how, and when you go. That's what I strongly believe the right to die is all about.

I know you were suicidal before the system, so I'm not dismissing that part at all. I will always be hoping there's a way to get to a place where the system isn't influencing or pressuring you, and you can make a choice based purely on what's right for you. You deserve that, as we all deserve that.

So I and lots of others here want that for you, and in the meantime we will be supporting you in whatever ways we can. Even if it's just a kind word that hopefully takes your mind off the stress for a bit, and in turn your kind words and conversation take my mind off my stress too. Sending virtual hugs

 

[alltoomuch2]

I was warned if I broke rules - family/friends would get ill, hurt or die . I broke rules and specifics they warned did happen.
I have photos of helicopters following me and others around me confirmed seeing some of them so that's not in my head.
I pulled a mircochip out of my finger, woke up with unexplained injection marks too.
There is more I can't go into.
But the above shows the system didn't lie so I believe them.

I really do appreciate all your support that has gone way above and beyond expected on here.
I'm so glad you're safe and here atm and I'm sorry but that's not enough.
It never directly threatened people on here anyway.o bi
The team do already know about things escalating and system becoming more insistent etc. so I have nothing else to say to them really.
Yes my method causes harm but for the greater good.
I don't want to be here anyway, makes little difference doing it in way I wouldn't have chose if same end result.
There really is no other choice, I'm sorry, and I really do appreciate all your suggestions and compassion

Then if you don't believe me then there's nothing more I can say. I'm glad my support has helped a bit. I'm horribly sad that you're going to do this and all the repercussions for you, your EIP team, the driver, the people who witness you being torn to pieces and crushed to bits. And it won't save the world or achieve anything at all. That's the bit that is so bad. Such a waste. I'm going to observe on here from now on, but I'm not going to comment any more unless you ask for more support. You're wrong believing that you have to do this. But you're head won't let you believe that. So please, don't do this. Talk to your team. Contact me if I can help you. But I'm not going to try to persuade you any more. I'm sorry but I'm tired. I can't keep trying to give you evidence and show you how you ctb'ing will not save the world, which doesn't need saving. So sorry, my lovely kind friend. We fought a good fight. But now I'm going to go off and cry a little. Huge hugs, hoping you're hugging me back. xxxxx

 

[NoPoint2Life]

How are you doing today @timetodie24 ?

 

[biosphere]

If the entire world's fate depended on you, this "system's" enforcers would do a hell of a lot more than just threaten your family or stalk you. They've done far worse for less.

 

[alltoomuch2]

Hey. How're you doing tonight @timetodie24 ? Hope you're feeling a bit better. I know I said I was stepping back but I missed you too much! As always, if there's anything I can do to help I will. Big hugs my lovely strong kind friend xxxx

 

[infinitend]

One tip: start using "contradiction" as a way to try to see the things you've been thinking. Start checking how much they can be contradictory, and you'll see if they make sense. I respect your crises, but I hope they're not a way to gain attention in a serious and welcoming community.

 

[Edistrying]

My friend, no one are gonna judge you, if the system has to end, it'll be & its gonna be ok for more that 70% of people living, the world is enough ugly now. Don't let they win.
I really hope you been doing ok, i open to talk, see you !

 

[deadstillwalking]

I rarely recommend pills, but if you suffer from schizophrenia you better get some antipsychotics. If it was just paranoia it would be fine, but the microchip thing you mentioned really disturbed me. I'm saying all this because you aren't only dangerous to yourself but to others as well. I hope you get better.

 

[Privateer2368]

I know no one believes me .
But soon I promise you all will see
The world is already shifting and there will be a complete system reset when I die.
Disasters are coming but I will stop the ones that have been caused by my existence.
Once I step into the highway, the whole world will understand the system.
You may think it's all BS now but that's because you haven't seen.
But you will.
And you will be relieved but angry at me for risking the system in the first place.
I am sorry but I don't expect forgiveness.

Okay, if you say so.

 

[Whale_bones]

One tip: start using "contradiction" as a way to try to see the things you've been thinking. Start checking how much they can be contradictory, and you'll see if they make sense. I respect your crises, but I hope they're not a way to gain attention in a serious and welcoming community.

Timetodie has a long-established post history and she's been consistently sharing about the issues she's facing in a very brave way. If you spend even a few minutes looking at her post history, it's clear that she's an authentic forum user who engages supportively on other people's posts, along with sharing her own thoughts and struggles.

I truly don't understand why you would go with the assumption that she has a lesser understanding of this community than you do, when her account is a full year older than yours and she has a much longer post history. There is nothing to support the idea that she's doing anything "as a way to gain attention" and plenty of posts that show she's a kind, thoughtful forum member.

I rarely recommend pills, but if you suffer from schizophrenia you better get some antipsychotics. If it was just paranoia it would be fine, but the microchip thing you mentioned really disturbed me. I'm saying all this because you aren't only dangerous to yourself but to others as well. I hope you get better.

Okay, if you say so.

We don't know if Timetodie is still with us, and making speculations and implications about her in her absence is highly inappropriate. Please leave this space for those that are supportive and have been following her story for a while now.

 

[opheliaoveragain]

thinking of you OP

 

[Lostandfound82]

I hope you are ok I have also went through something similar before and it was terrifying. I still have ptsd from the mind set I was in but I have faith everything will be okay. Best of luck to you.

 

[timetodie24]

Still here. Not good. Can't really do words atm sorry .

But thank you so much and hugs to @Whale_bones @alltoomuch2 @NoPoint2Life @opheliaoveragain @Edistrying
@Lostandfound82

 

[opheliaoveragain]

HEY. that's ok! i'm just happy to hear from you in any capacity. take care of yourself the best you can. we're not going anywhere.

 

[alltoomuch2]

Still here. Not good. Can't really do words atm sorry .

But thank you so much and hugs to @Whale_bones @alltoomuch2 @NoPoint2Life @opheliaoveragain @Edistrying
@Lostandfound82

So happy to hear you're still here. You're so brave. No need for words. Just so glad and grateful you let us know you're still here my friend xxxx

 

[NoPoint2Life]

So glad you are still with us. I hope the past few days haven't been too rough.
When you are ready, you can talk. Just seeing you post today brightens up my day :)

 

[Whale_bones]

@timetodie24 So lovely to hear from you, sending you so much strength. Don't worry about needing to find the words, just try to take it one day at a time and your friends on here have got your back in the meantime