Venting melancholy

[wonderfulheaven]

i dont really want to kill myself i just feel complete and utter despair knowing its my only choice if my fears come true. no one is here to comfort or reassure me about it so im completely convinced itll happen.

 

[SomewhatLoved]

I feel the same way. I don't think I actually "want" to die, moreso I'm just dissatisfied with life and I don't imagine how it could get better.

You should try to get better if possible though. Have you tried making friends, volunteering, or getting involved in a local community (clubs, groups, concerts)? I found for a while going to local metal shows and volunteering with a local organization made me feel temporarily better.

 

[wonderfulheaven]

I feel the same way. I don't think I actually "want" to die, moreso I'm just dissatisfied with life and I don't imagine how it could get better.

You should try to get better if possible though. Have you tried making friends, volunteering, or getting involved in a local community (clubs, groups, concerts)? I found for a while going to local metal shows and volunteering with a local organization made me feel temporarily better.

i'm glad it was able to help you a little

i don't think real people are something i can get into. as much as i've tried everything ends in rejection or betrayal

i don't know how to socialize and have little will to so i only know sitting and wallowing alone

 

[SomewhatLoved]

i'm glad it was able to help you a little

i don't think real people are something i can get into. as much as i've tried everything ends in rejection or betrayal

i don't know how to socialize and have little will to so i only know sitting and wallowing alone

It's fair to feel that way. When I was in school I had a few classmates who I got along with but never much more. When I graduated and became an adult I tried to make friends but it didn't really seem to work so I'm in your situation as well.