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thebayleaf

thebayleaf

my thoughts will follow you into your dreams
Nov 6, 2025
60
heya im a 22 y.o. transgirl from australia.

went insane and stopped leaving my house a while ago, so now i stay inside and draw all day, everyday. (if you're active on trans-twitter, you've likely seen my art before). tried to ctb a couple times previously, but survived each time cause i got fucked by random chance and bad luck, so nowadays im kinda just aimlessly floating through life, waiting for it to get bad again so i'll have the motivation to finally make it all stop (hopefully soon 🤞🤞🤞) (also hit me up if you wanna ctb together).

anyway uhhh some things i guess
- i really like music. i usually have spotify playing 24/7. my favourite artists are car seat headrest, pink floyd, childish gambino, kendrick lamar, sweet trip and tame impala. i also play guitar (not very well).
- i don't really play video games anymore, but some of my favourites when i do are factorio (i fucking loveee factorio), terraria, rimworld and dwarf fortress. i also used play brawlhalla competitively (long time ago) and am very very good at tony hawks pro skater
- i fucking love love love omori. nothing has fucked with my brain chemistry harder than omori did (and also undertale/deltarune) i am literally sunny btw.
- kinda a drug nerd. used to do a lot of substances (but not really anymore) and ive got some cool drug stories.

pm me if you fuck with my vibe. be warned tho im a little bpd.
also if you're at a grocery store and pick up a whole watermelon and start eating it, how much could you finish before the staff stop you?
 
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littleearthquakes

littleearthquakes

Member
Apr 10, 2024
73
Hey. Haven't done one of these in a while. I'm in my 30s in the US. Queer, genderqueer, ace. Very left leaning and into disability rights.

I'm severely disabled and chronically ill with degenerative conditions and a lot of pain and medical trauma. Also autistic and mentally ill. The medical stuff is the main thing that wrecks me. Currently bedbound.

No immediate plans to ctb but want to be able to talk about it generally and be able to be hopeless and depressed about things without pity, advice, or toxic positivity. Most people can't hold space for it so that's why I come here. I'm happy to hold space for whatever others go through in return. I try to be empathetic and a good listener. Mutual support and engagement is awesome.

I enjoy deep convos but also like to talk about hobbies and nerdy things. Love music and TV. Making playlists. Used to be a writer and sort of still am.

Feel free to send a message if you think we might get along. Prefer Discord if we connect.
 
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SerialProcrastinatr

SerialProcrastinatr

New Member
Jun 15, 2023
3
mid-30s M from western EU here

I am physically disabled (extremely reliant on other people) and have been suffering from MDD for almost 20 years now. My life is a joke, and every time I get some hope of things improving it always turns out to be a dud.

I'm also a huge pussy tho and with the only real reliable way for me to ctb being to drown myself I've always put it off.

I wouldn't mind friends, but ideally you would be pushing/convincing/blackmailing me to actually follow through with it. Maybe even help with the physical aspect? I am able and willing to travel for this.

Prefer talking on discord or telegram, but will go wherever. F preferred but everyone welcome
 
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DeusVult

DeusVult

Death Fetish
Aug 18, 2024
48
Hi, 30m from Europe, depression and anhedonia, I feel very empty and void of feelings. I don't have any real friends. I self-harm and think about suicide.

I like animals, videogames, music (breakcore), anime (Lain), computers (coding, anonymity)
 
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ultradespair

ultradespair

Shut-in
Jul 25, 2025
50
22 M from Europe
Shut-in for the past 5+ years
Would like to make non-judgemental friends that have similar interests/lives
My favourite things are: various Videogames (especially MMOs), Animals (cats!!!) and Music
Id love to hear about your hyperfixations/interests!
 
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Marbas

Marbas

Misery Loves Company
Feb 20, 2025
96
31f - AUDHD - Asexual Panromantic. From the US. I have OCD and PTSD. I have allergy OCD (I get panic attacks when I eat due to allergic reaction fears) and when I leave the house I get panic attacks. I also deal with SH and have an ED because the OCD makes it hard to eat. That being said I do have a therapist I see.

I live in faux leather jackets and boots. I'd like to think in another life I could have been in a band. However in this life I could never manage to learn a musical instrument. I recently got back into reading and I enjoy writing as well. Sometimes I like to paint and draw as well. I like videogames too. I like collecting vinyl records and books.

Some things in particular I like to just name some stuff - Yugioh, WWE, Hazbin Hotel, Helluva Boss, Sonic the Hedgehog, Mario games, cozy games and indie games, A Hat in Time, Stardew Valley, Danganronpa series, FNAF, South Park,Final Fantasy games (I've been replaying X and X-2 here recently), Pokemon, Digimon, rock music, classic rock, metal, kpop, jpop and pop music.

I've been considering getting back into anime, manga and comics. Sailormoon, Inuyasha, Fruitsbaket, One Piece, Nana and Death Note to name drop some I've read/seen. Comics wise I enjoyed Batman, Nightwing, Fables and Sandman series.

You should be able to DM me. I also have discord.
 
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yesi

Maybe less bad but never good?
Nov 10, 2025
23
Hi all,

I'm 28M from northern England. I like rock, metal and indie music plus a bit of most genres.

I like tech and also like talking about things that I'm not familiar with so feel free to DM me to talk about your things or just chat the same old depression and vent talk.
 
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Grog

Grog

*in the Lost Woods*
Jun 3, 2025
406
Hi people! I'm Grog! I'm 30 and I'm from the US.
I have MDD, GAD, PTSD, ADHD, and anhedonia.
I want to help my anhedonia by meeting new friends with common interests and hobbies!

I am super into retro gaming. My favorite systems are probably the PS1, Game Boy/Color/Advance, NES, SNES, and Sega Saturn. But I love so many old systems! I like to emulate the games on my PC!
I play modern stuff too. I'm really into Clair Obscur Expedition 33 lately!

I really like anime and manga! Some of my favorites are Neon Genesis Evangelion, Cowboy Bebop, Steins;Gate, Over the Top Gunbuster, Crayon Shin-Chan, Serial Experiments Lain, Miss Kobayashi's Dragon Maid, just to name a few.
I also love learning the Japanese language. I love Japanese culture in general!

I'd love to meet new friends that I can talk about these hobbies with! Feel free to DM me! 🙂
 
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Myheart4U

Myheart4U

Member
Nov 3, 2025
6
Hii, I'm a 21 year old transgirl from the US looking to make some friends. We can talk about anything and I'll try to respond, but I tend to overthink so dont take it as me ignoring you!! Not comfortable speaking so no calls for now.

I like drawing (only digital right now), video games, cats (I'm allergic :c), and music. I don't watch many shows or movies anymore but I do watch some anime. I want to get into photography and maybe learn guitar at some point. I'm going to start a garden next year so I'll also be getting into gardening.

I only use discord to communicate outside of family. Also, how do you DM on here? :p
 
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grandmotherboxing

grandmotherboxing

glorp
Jun 22, 2024
45
Hi, originally this was a lurker account so forgive the silly name, not sure what id like to be called. I'm a 21 yo male from Serbia. Been depressed since very early in my childhood. Tried to CTB too many times to count but survived every time and backed out a couple other times. Right now I am focused on recovering and will be seeing a therapist

I'd like to meet new friends as my only friend right now is my dad, but I have some trust issues so hopefully a very small number at most

I have autism ("high functioning"), BPD (medicated, dont worry), (C-?)PTSD, depression and OCD and have been due to health reasons semi-houseridden for about five years now so don't expect much :p

I try my best to be a good listener even if I might sometimes accidentally interject as I get scared of losing a good thought, IRL it is much easier for me but cuz its text on a screen pls dont hold it against me

Since ive been a shut-in for a while all ive been doing is reading articles, old newspapers, books (nonfiction to fiction ratio might be 4:1, but im not a super book guy), research papers, watching movies, TV, games, music, a little bit of anime (i only got into it 4 years ago, sorry for being mean to weebs before ^-^), and chatting online cuz lots of useless information lives inside my skull and I love yapping, talking to people is my favorite hobby

I wrote a lot in detail on favorite authors, music, games, books, films shows and old youtube channels i grew up on but I won't post it because idk if it's too detailed and revealing (paranoia?)

If you wanna talk, for now please avoid sending out any overt signals of closeness as I have attachment issues and will fear abandonment too much, also please be direct with me if you feel negatively towards something im saying or doing as it is unpredictable for me and impossible for me to correct any inappropriate behavior if someone is vague or obtuse... also I would prefer (though it's not a necessity) if anyone who messages me is outside of Serbia because I have a distrust of everyone here that is out of my control, I'm sorry for that

Thank you in advance and im sorry if I seemed blunt or rude
 
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woodlandcreature

woodlandcreature

tired | they/it | feel free to reach out
Apr 3, 2024
174
21 y/o enby
i'm looking for company before i die i guess. my plan is by the end of the month (so within the next few weeks)
interests include: art, art history, music (broadly), animals, and horror, but i'll talk about anything really.
 
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nocatwaslost

nocatwaslost

free hugs
Dec 7, 2024
27
hope you don't get an allergic reaction from my reply, but just post some comments and do reactions and after a few days you will unlock the chat/pm function :)
Hii, I'm a 21 year old transgirl from the US looking to make some friends. We can talk about anything and I'll try to respond, but I tend to overthink so dont take it as me ignoring you!! Not comfortable speaking so no calls for now.

I like drawing (only digital right now), video games, cats (I'm allergic :c), and music. I don't watch many shows or movies anymore but I do watch some anime. I want to get into photography and maybe learn guitar at some point. I'm going to start a garden next year so I'll also be getting into gardening.

I only use discord to communicate outside of family. Also, how do you DM on here? :p
 
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stink144

stink144

Nothing
Dec 29, 2024
160
Hi, I'm stink, I'm 20-something F from poland and I've been severely depressed since age 12 and had suicidal thoughts since age 14. I'm looking for people to chat with and maybe become friends, my discord is stink144
 
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methodologicrapture

New Member
Nov 1, 2025
3
hi i'm 18 she/her college student from the US west coast. i'm only diagnosed with depression & anxiety.

how soon i ctb depends on a circumstance in my life rn but its looking like before the year is over

basically all I do is read books these days to escape from reality, but we can talk abt conspiracy theories, philosophy, films, music, astrology, kpop ect i also used to do tennis and cheer. i want someone to vent with, talk abt ctb and talk abt shared interests.

i have discord too
hey, add me on discord if you'd like to talk: typegrix_65304 20m, east coast us, depression / contemplating ctb, similar interests.
 
AnonymousL

AnonymousL

Arcanist
Apr 5, 2023
423
Hi
I(m Babsie
26 year old female from Belgium.

I would like some female friends.

I like reading, gaming and making art.

Would love someone to chat with on a regular basis and maybe call sometimes on discord.
 
Macedonian1987

Macedonian1987

Just a sad guy from Macedonia.
Oct 22, 2025
451
38 M from Macedonia. (now called North Macedonia)

It would have been nice if there was someone else from my country here, but sadly it seems I'm the only lone Macedonian here 🥺😢
 
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ineedsomerest

New Member
Oct 27, 2025
4
hi everyone, I'm ant 29m from shithole toronto born and raised. I enjoy music production, philosophy, hiking, video games, cooking, weed. Looking for genuine friends, hopefully longterm. I have discord: @ant1ant2
 
BrainSplatter

BrainSplatter

Student
Oct 31, 2025
161
Hiii, you can just call me Brains
I'm 24F from the UK - not sure how much longer I'll be here but it'd be nice to speak to more people and make some friends.

I'm honestly not sure what I enjoy anymore everything's been feeling kinda bland. I've always been a thrill seeker life always felt boring even before things got so bad. I like raves, partying, swinging, drinking and yeah drugs. My lifestyle is pretty chaotic but at least I'm upfront about it. In a weird way, the chaos keeps me here a little longer while I figure things out.

These are my hobbies and interests or they used to be, idk anymore - fashion, music, film, photography, video editing, digital art, singing, poetry, NFTs, anime, and reselling.

DM me if you want to talk more - I prefer Telegram but I also have Discord too
 
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stink144

stink144

Nothing
Dec 29, 2024
160
Hi, I'm stink, I'm 20-something F from poland and I've been severely depressed since age 12 and had suicidal thoughts since age 14. I'm looking for people to chat with and maybe become friends, my discord is stink144
Also I like the misfits guitarist Doyle Wolfgang von Frankenstein, I have an obsession with him. I would love to find people to play games with as well, especially Roblox especially with other women who enjoy it. It's funny and fun. Pls I'm so lonely, I need a gamerpal. I started playing Roblox this year with my friend who now ghosted me and it's really sad. We had a lot of fun on there. I just wanna replicate that...
 
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.lvldown

.lvldown

Unreal
Dec 9, 2019
34
Anyone want to be friends? My discord is the same as my username. Feel free to add me or send a message. I don't mind talking with anyone.

I'm 27 and trans (female to male), from Canada. I haven't really come out yet to anyone..

My main interests are gaming and drawing. I also love music, primarily alt, emo, metal and pop genres.
I am very introverted and don't get out. I'd love to meet some new people who want to keep in touch over the long term, play games with me, vent to eachother, or something like that. Tired of being lonely.
 
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an_alias

an_alias

Hi :)
Dec 21, 2020
143
my name is Ryan! asexual and proud. if you like:
  • Literature: Italo Calvino, David Foster Wallace, Walt Whitman/adjacent transcendentalist writers e.g. Edward Carpenter, WWI war poetry, Rumi, Kuzhali Manickavel, Arundathi Roy, Oscar Wilde
  • (normie) Music: Red Hot Chili Peppers, TWICE, ILLIT, Beabadoobee, Japanese Breakfast, Coldplay, Faye Wong
  • (slightly weirder) Music: Animal Collective/Panda Bear, Beach House, Spacemen 3, Pavement, Bark Psychosis, Lightning Bolt, Hella, Gang Gang Dance, John Frusciante, Battles, Dot Hacker, The Durutti Column, Tortoise, Built to Spill, The Flaming Lips, Tim Hecker, Boredoms, Interpol, The Velvet Underground, Talking Heads, Dinosaur Jr
  • Movies: Barton Fink, Lost in Translation, Wings of Desire—but also low-brow Apatow stuff like Superbad :p
  • STEM, especially computer science and Linux wizardry
  • linguistics
then shoot me a DM! personalitywise I'm an ISTJ with very high Fe, love hearing abt people's day and life stories ^^
 
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alixisbonez

alixisbonez

Member
Nov 15, 2025
14
Hi I'm Alix I'm 21 ftm
I like writing and drawing I'm into vkei music and fashion Jirai danshi/ kei style fashion as well tho I'm broke as fuck so I keep it to music bc that's free 😁
I have bpd chronic suicidal ideation., anxiety and depression was on medication I'm not anymore so yay
I like to talk about music or anything really I like to listen
 
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ibewguy

ibewguy

Tell me why the highs always feel so low
Nov 16, 2025
5
30m FL/US
I choose where I travel for work. I don't have much support in my personal life. Going through a divorce. Looking for someone reliable to go back and forth with through the days. Open to IRL hangout. Preferably dont want to talk to people with more than a 3-4 year age difference. My account is new so I can't PM yet. Open to talking to males or females of a similar age. Metal music fans hit me up. Music fans in general. I listen to a bit of everything and have a really Open mind when it comes to music. I appreciate it all.
 
natsuobun

natsuobun

Soda Beast
Nov 17, 2025
25
Helllooooooo My name is Taffy and Im 18 Years old Im Looking forward to meet a Lot of new people as I like talking But not sure How to put My thoughts into the right words so It all comes out as complete NONSENSE so Bare with that ... Im Also FTM so If any of you guys are Trans too Id be more than happy To have you as my friend !!! I have a handful of hobbies Such as art, Music, Fashion and always trying Out new stuff Such as drinks and sweets ! Also nitro chiral Games which Are visual novels AND a lot of anime, MOBA games .... My taste in music Is very diverse Id say so say it Aint so Sorry the weezer got to me I Like a lot of bands such as Joyce Manor, Black country, New road , Weezer Of course, Sadness, Planning for Burial, of Montreal, Title fight, MOBO, The front bottom, Self, Radiohead, Have A Nice Life, Birds Fear Death, The scallywags, Far apart, American Football, Carcass, Plastic tree, BUCK-TICK, Malice Mizer ETC

I live In romania and Its so Freakin boring here Might be just cause Im in the Buttfuck of Nowhere but thats what I think man
Im Still planning on the date to CTB but Its not that soon So do not worry !!! That was a little funny okay
Im Suspecting some Kinda personality disorder Along with BPD Im pretty all over the place and Hyper and Dont take things THAT Seriously but Im still nice and Kind

My schedule is Pretty free so Feeeeel free to text Me anytime on My discord which is purinpuri !!!! I dont bite
PEACE OUT
 
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shiftingtendons

shiftingtendons

( ͒ ́ඉ .̫ ඉ ̀ ͒) they/them
Nov 15, 2025
62
halloo ^_^ I'm Cap, enby they/them, I'm 19 (turning 20 in two months!), and I'm brazilian!

Here's some of my interests:

- Books: Specially danmei! Currently reading 2ha, already read all MXTX books

- Games: I LOVE THE DRAKENGARD/NIER SERIES, FEAR AND HUNGER AND UMAMUSUME!!! + Needy Streamer Overload, Hades, Persona 5, PJSK, Cookie Run, YTTD, and more!!!

- Anime: Lots and lots of anime! but i specially REALLYYYY LOVEEEEE orb: on the movements of the earth! also apothecary diaries, chiikawa and mononoke!!! 🩷🩷🩷

- Music: I listen to a little bit of everything! but i loveeeeee vocaloid, mitski, and goth

I would really appreciate if you sent me a conversation instead of a dm because mine is currently buggy (??) so we can exchange discord !
 
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sanctionme93

Member
Nov 18, 2025
30
Hi I'm James 32m here looking for short term friends I'm currently waiting for my SN to be delivered and honestly I just spend my days doing nothing but waiting for it I'm a navy vet from the US in Virginia if that matters. Looking forward to this all being over.
 
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natsuobun

natsuobun

Soda Beast
Nov 17, 2025
25
halloo ^_^ I'm Cap, enby they/them, I'm 19 (turning 20 in two months!), and I'm brazilian!

Here's some of my interests:

- Books: Specially danmei! Currently reading 2ha, already read all MXTX books

- Games: I LOVE THE DRAKENGARD/NIER SERIES, FEAR AND HUNGER AND UMAMUSUME!!! + Needy Streamer Overload, Hades, Persona 5, PJSK, Cookie Run, YTTD, and more!!!

- Anime: Lots and lots of anime! but i specially REALLYYYY LOVEEEEE orb: on the movements of the earth! also apothecary diaries, chiikawa and mononoke!!! 🩷🩷🩷

- Music: I listen to a little bit of everything! but i loveeeeee vocaloid, mitski, and goth

I would really appreciate if you sent me a conversation instead of a dm because mine is currently buggy (??) so we can exchange discord !
Haaaaai you seem Really cool and I also like P5 !!!! And always wanted to play YTTD so Ill probably play it SOON After multiple attempts of mine And getting so bored with it then quitting BUT I HAVE HOPE! Usagi sooo cute .... My discord is purinpuri If youre interested
 
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Nov 10, 2025
15
Hi! You can call me Koi. I'm 19M from Brazil. Not totally sure about my sexuality yet. Probably heterosexual or bisexual. A bit about what I'm into:

Games:
My favorite game is osu! I'm also into metroidvanias and PS2-style games. I don't play a huge variety, but I love watching other people play while we talk.

Sports:
Quite a fan of soccer and volleyball. I usually practice alone so I don't feel like a burden to others.

Music:
I like everything: breakcore, k-pop, rock, instrumental, EDM... you name it. Death metal is my favorite though.

Shows:
I don't watch a lot of movies, TV shows, anime, or manga, but sometimes I give them a shot. I'm kinda picky.

Other Stuff:
Every week or so I fall into a new niche rabbit hole. Panchiko, cave diving, fishing, mahjong, Touhou, Rubik's cubes, etc. They show up fast and disappear just as quick.

Feel free to DM me! My english might be a bit scuffed, though. If I take a while to answer, I'm probably just overthinking things.
 
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