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Seaghost

Seaghost

Arcanist
Apr 14, 2019
411
German, 42m, my mind is always switching between 16 and 80 :].
Having real life friends between 22 and 71 but you now talking about suicide can be really difficult and that can boost loneliness. I'm sure you all kniw what mean xD.

Music: Regular I'm mostly into like rock/hardrock/bombast rock (for example Def Leppard, Jim.Steinman, Cinderella etc) or Musicals, Classic, sometimes (not the cliche aggro stuff) Rap, folk, film music.

I can be a clown and also completely quiet and deep talk ready.
At the moment I'm very into darkness and try to preperate my last steps.

A note at the end: It can happen I won't answering a long time especially if the postings in Dms getting bigger and bigger.
The my brain is overwhelmed and not able to answer in a competent way and that brings my mind under huge pressure. So it's not a bad will from my side but it could help not to make book-like seized DMs - from both sides ;).

Btw. If I'm realizing someone ist just searching for attention or other stuff. I'm closing the conversation immediately.
 
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hippiedeath

hippiedeath

Dead on the inside
Jul 12, 2025
134
Hi, I'm from New York, 53 M. Would someone be my friend, please? I'm in a desperate state of mind lately, with pockets of blue sky. I'm a good conversationalist, I write poetry and am a percussionist.
 
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ceramic_apple

ceramic_apple

Member
Sep 3, 2024
11
Hello, my name is Ann. I'm 19, from Buffalo.
 
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Mirelight

Mirelight

Just going through life's motions
May 21, 2024
214
20M, originally from Nepal, currently in US, CDT time zone. CS Major. Currently a little interested in osdev, but haven't been able to do much, have made some small 2d games, but don't think I wanna go down that road in future, a linux fanboy, wanna rice my system to the max someday, currently using mint with gnome. Am looking for someone in uni or just studying in general so we can encourage each other to do stuff and study together or smthing like that. Better if u are CS or something STEM, it's alright even if u r not tho.

I'm also trying to lose weight, been overweight my entire life, have been trying to do it for quite a while, but never succeed, hopefully I don't give up midway this time around too. I'm also a little interested in femboyish stuffs, I really wanna give makeup and cosplay a try at least once if I manage to lose some weight this time around. Don't think I'm gonna look as good as I like to think of it in my head, but wanna give it a try once.

I also like reading fantasy webnovels, I don't play games except one called osu!, I'm open to trying others if that's your thing, but my laptop is a little crappy and I use linux so choices aren't much. I like Japanese songs, imperial circus decadence are my fav band, I love wagaki band too, don't like the cringy ones with high pitched voices tho, yoasobi and the oral cigarettes are pretty good too.

In terms of ctb, I don't know... I've kinda lost touch with reality in some sense lately, Even if bad/ disappointing thing happen, the "pain" is just momentary. I remember when these feeling used to last longer, It has made life a lot more bearable, but it's been a little weird.

Anyway, just dm me if u think we can be friends.
Repost.

Things have been a little worse since, mostly financial ig. Tho my favorite webnovel (lotm) recently got animated so it's been a small beacon to look forward to as the week ends. I've changed my distro from mint to fedora, I like the gnome DE but mint does not officially support it, was getting lot of bugs so I left it. I've been recently getting into rust too, tho some days rust is all I do while most week I just stare into nothingness or doom scroll, I've absolutely zero consistency. I've also been reading a few webnovels, mostly listening to them during work. I tried going forward with osdev but the bar seems too high, tried going thru a book and even the prerequesite seems pretty daunting. Rather I'm looking towards compilers first before trying again, been going thru book called crafting interpreters, a bit above my league but I'm trying. It's not like I like programming, but it's the only thing that makes me feel like I'm not wasting my time, but even then finding motivation is hard most times. I tried getting into webdev with a friend too, but we have been procastinating it again and again, it's been a little awakard and haven't talked with him in a while.
 
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LostMary

LostMary

LostMary
Jun 28, 2025
13
Hi 44 F Portugal.

I guess i must be one of the older users I've seen so far in here.

Struggled with depression all my life, been on antidepressants for 30 years.

Multiple attempts at CTB, not very skilled i suppose.

I'm getting old, some constant pains that keep me from working a normal 8 hour day sitting at the desk.

Was never married, never bought a house, have no friends and for family only one adult son that won't talk to me since my last attempt.

Love stand up comedy and good conversation. Anhedonia keeps me from enjoying other stuff.

Still i would like some company and friendship through this journey.
 
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hippiedeath

hippiedeath

Dead on the inside
Jul 12, 2025
134
Hi 44 F Portugal.

I guess i must be one of the older users I've seen so far in here.

Struggled with depression all my life, been on antidepressants for 30 years.

Multiple attempts at CTB, not very skilled i suppose.

I'm getting old, some constant pains that keep me from working a normal 8 hour day sitting at the desk.

Was never married, never bought a house, have no friends and for family only one adult son that won't talk to me since my last attempt.

Love stand up comedy and good conversation. Anhedonia keeps me from enjoying other stuff.

Still i would like some company and friendship through this journey.
Hi Mary. I'm Chris from New York. I'm 53 M. If you wanna chat, I'm available for friendship.
 
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soulchaser_

soulchaser_

he/him
Jul 20, 2025
7
alright, hello everyone!!

I'm 18m from Poland :p
hmm so what do I say here.

I'm a bit lost in life lolol, I do have some future plans, I had some bad breakups in the past so I don't trust people easily, only come talk if you're a good person honestly as I have become quite sensitive :d
I'm also transgender in the process of getting HRT currently!

I am a little fur dad with a cute ginger kitty. I love playing games (ex. roblox, minecraft) and talking. I am a yapper in hopes to find another yapper, but listeners also welcome (I do overshare... a lot)
Other smaller interests is digital art, a bit of skating, a bit of gym, even more roblox, chem and biology, books, anime and I love taking care of others

also not planning to ctb soon, just feeling depressed often(in recovery)
plsss pm plsplspls..
 
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soulchaser_

soulchaser_

he/him
Jul 20, 2025
7
Hey!, my name is Nattns (21M). I'm studying Games Art & Design in UK so I have a big passion for videogames, I love anime and films, I also learning how to play the bass and chess. I'm mainly on SS to fight my Social Anxiety, so I'm trying my best to open myself to new people. I don't use SS too often, so feel free to DM me your Discord.

Have a nice day everyone:)
heyy I cannot dm u somehow, can u dm me?
 
Mx_Pathetic

Mx_Pathetic

Delete
May 8, 2023
145
Australian-22-F

I made a thread not that long ago, but wanted to try again. I'd like to make a friend who's in my age range and isn't judgmental about my living situation/ life. I'd also like if you lived in Australia too, as my two online friends happen to live on the other side of the world and the time difference is ridiculous.

I've been diagnosed with -CPTSD, BPD, BP, ADHD, OCD and obviously depression, anxiety/panic attacks. I also suffer with terrible eating habits.

Currently doing TMS in a small hope that things might get a little bit better or I'll be a bit more "normal" in a sense. However I'm ready to ctb when this doesn't work on me.
 
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J

just a bird

Member
Jun 7, 2025
43
Kinda want to repost since I'm in a different spot now.
Hi! I'm Bird, 19 nb from the eastern half of the U.S.
Diagnoses: BPD, OCD, depression
Currently: a strange combination of in recovery with chronic suicidal thinking.
Interested in: anime, vocaloid, Minecraft speedrunning, horror games/videos, dogs, music
Looking for: a friend I can be honest with
 
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xeno112007

xeno112007

Member
Jul 18, 2025
53
18m ocd
suicidal and will ctb in 1 week
loves music memes and anime
looking for friend
 
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DepressedEgg

DepressedEgg

Member
Jun 20, 2023
28
Hi 44 F Portugal.
Hi there,
How're you doing? I hope you're not too bad, all things considered. I can't DM you, but if you'd want to chat I'm always open to receiving messages.
Australian-22-F
Hi there,
I'm 20NB, not from Australia unfortunately but I'm always happy to talk if you want. Feel free to DM me and we can chat about whatever you like :)
 
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ultradespair

ultradespair

Shut-in
Jul 25, 2025
11
22 M from Europe
Shut-in for the past 5+ years
Would like to make non-judgemental friends that have similar interests/lives
My favourite things are: various Videogames (especially MMOs), Animals (cats!!!) and Music
 
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LucifersIntrovert

LucifersIntrovert

Buried Alive
Sep 10, 2023
59
M20 from California
Currently in college just existing I guess?!? Lived with depression and been diagnosed with it since I was 12 countless numbers of therapists, been to rehab and "psych wards". But just want people to talk to I guess?!? Idk just kinda lost and don't feel like I can open up to my irl friends or can relate to them on a deep level like this website. But I still enjoy music and horror movies as a regular person :)
 
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xeno112007

xeno112007

Member
Jul 18, 2025
53
Hey! Do you happen to know when that usually happens? Made the account a couple days ago.
you have to post 30-50 messages then you can start conversation. but if you are eager I think we can chat in a thread publicly. it is allowed.
 
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