Madman

[ddd1234]

Around healthy people, I feel like the worst madman in the company
I went to the outpatient psych ward and guess what - I was the worst madman in the whole ward
I went to the stationary psych ward and hoped that there will be the biggest maniacs than me - nope, I was the greatest madman in the whole stationary ward.
So now I am here in the SanctionedSuicide community and was sure that there will be the biggest maniacs than myself. Nope, I still, feel like I am the worst madman in the whole community.

Where should I go to find worse maniacs than myself to feel some comfort?

 

[Dot]

Cn promse u tht u wld nt b th 'wrst' hre

 

[Lucas70]

I know there are many who have worst situation than you.And they don't talk about it coz it's helpless.

 

[Snake of Eden]

I know there are many who have worst situation than you.And they don't talk about it coz it's helpless.

Dis

 

[4eyebiped]

If you wish to find others that are similar or worst than you, perhaps you should detail out some of what makes you the number one madman. What is unique about you that you are not seeing or finding elsewhere? Perhaps, there are qualities you are seeking and hoping to find? Once you give some details, then relatable people may be able to respond.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

You may find this manic energy begins to wear off overtime. I went through something similar. Have you noticed your energy shift at all? Or is it just been madman 24 /seven?

 

[ddd1234]

24/7 cannot stand it anymore. If I could I would hang myself but I don't live alone, and they are aware of my suicidal thoughts.

 

[Lucas70]

When everyday the same,slowly you will somehow adapt to it.You have no choice but to face it.I know its so scary but what option do we have.Nowhere to go,can't run and cant hide.And can become worst and we can't do anything.

 

[ddd1234]

We have an option - CTB. I am afraid that if I don't do it soon, I will lose my mind totally and will be put to psych ward again- this time for much longer.

 

[setup]

We have an option - CTB. I am afraid that if I don't do it soon, I will lose my mind totally and will be put to psych ward again- this time for much longer.

Honestly maybe u should go to the ward. Then u might find people more extreme. Be careful what u wish for and please think about things

 

[Lucas70]

True some case can be postponed but some case will cause more damage and they like to blame us and make people hate us.