lowkey feel like having a boyfriend would solve all my problems

[Valhala]

Thats totally not obessive and entitled at all. Why put all your validation onto one person? Habits like that are reasons people stray away. To put the responsibility of life and death onto one person just ruins any authenticity you'd expect from things happening naturally.

I get being obsessed with other people, but to make it take over your life like this will just make both parties miserable.

Happy late birthday tho.

Thank you for the congratulations on my birthday. It is not about the responsibility of anyone or about the validation of life and death, it is about my personal feelings which are as they are. I am aware that everyone makes their own decisions and chooses their own path, so this rule applies and on myself. She has nothing to do in terms of any responsibility for my feelings or decisions, all I wanted was to be honest and write how I feel on my birthday.

 

[Eventually_An_Angel]

I get this. I really, really do. Being an ill, terrified and lost woman in this world- all I want is just someone to take my hand and show me what it feels like to be protected and loved, even if it's just for a tiny bit of time. Even if it lasts for a month, I want it.
I have so much love in me too, and it seems like nobody wants it or gives a shit. I want to love and care but I am too ugly and stupid.
I'll proudly admit that I am not a strong and independent woman. I survived 28 years alone without any help but I am tired of it. Give me a farm, a house, I'll take care of everything just let me live far away from society. I don't know anymore...

sighs u get me i understand i just. thats all i could ever want. if i could just have that i dont need anything else. but obviously i never will