Venting Lost again

[ilovecats]

I feel like my mind is crumbling once again. I think these mental breakdowns are going to be more common from now on and I've already had enough, even though this time I'm only feeling an overwhelming need to end my life without panicking as much. I've been fasting the whole day in case I get desperate enough. Should I just do it? Is there any other way out of this? I don't know exactly what to do. Should I follow my past self? He knew better than me at the moment but what can guarantee to me that I'm not just paranoid and delusional? I need any kind of opinion from outside.

 

[FuneralCry]

I think that only you can decide if you should ctb or not, the point of this site is to respect people's decisions that they've already chosen for themselves rather than telling them what to do. It's a personal decision deciding what to do but anyway I wish you the best.

 

[ilovecats]

I feel like this decision is too important to make under these conditions. I'm not able to think properly.
That's why I think I should ask for thoughts