Loneliness

[FTL.Wanderer]

How do i get the courage to do it?

I think this is the ultimate question. Please share when you find the answer. Peace.

 

[SoupSnakes]

I think it's incredible how you can have so much going on, contributing to how you feel but I truly think loneliness is the kicker.
I'm also amazed at how you can be surrounded by like-minded people but also still feel so lonely.

I've tried to convince myself (pretty much since I was a kid) that I haven't been lonely and just powered on through it but much like others, I've been quite the introvert and it's slowly worn me down over the years.

 

[Deleted member 1465]

Underscore? Are you ill? I'm sorry.

Yeah barely functional bowel, polyuria especially at night. Hardly eating hardly sleeping getting weaker and lots of pain.

 

[azucaramargo]

Yeah barely functional bowel, polyuria especially at night. Hardly eating hardly sleeping getting weaker and lots of pain.

Oh, Underscore! That sounds awful! Do you have any support? Anyone to help you?

 

[Deleted member 1465]

Oh, Underscore! That sounds awful! Do you have any support? Anyone to help you?

I don't want to hijack the thread
May I pm you in reply?

 

[azucaramargo]

I don't want to hijack the thread
May I pm you in reply?

Please do!

 

[Deleted member 1465]

Please do!

Lol I'm sorry I can't, won't let me.

 

[Bluefish]

I think true connections to other people is one of the most important things in life. I'm forced to live in isolation in my room because of my disability. No ways to normally interact or spend time with others irl. Thank fuck for social media but it's more shallow way to communicate with others. Loneliness sucks, especially when all you want is to be around other people, but your body says no.

 

[Deleted member 1465]

I think true connections to other people is one of the most important things in life. I'm forced to live in isolation in my room because of my disability. No ways to normally interact or spend time with others irl. Thank fuck for social media but it's more shallow way to communicate with others. Loneliness sucks, especially when all you want is to be around other people, but your body says no.

I feel exactly the same. Isolated but not through choice. They say stuff like "why don't you go out for a coffee or something?" and I wanna yell back "I'd bloody love to, but I can hardly physically move!"
Instead I just shrug.

 

[woxihuanni]

I'm so lonely I don't even have my own company anymore. My meat is worthless and unused, unembraced, undesired. My brain is a loathsome know-it-all piece of filth that needs to be crushed with a rock like a walnut.

 

[Lonely789]

I'm 45 and thought I had it all 8 months ago. A beautiful wife of 18 years, 3 wonderful boys, a house and a good job. Then my wife wanted to separate. Then I found out 2 weeks ago she was having an affair with someone she had fallen in love with. I'm still waiting for papers from her and I know she is torned about the welfare of the kids when it does happen. In addition, last week my dad passed away. The last 8 months have been a living hell for me trying to stay strong for my kids. Everyday that goes on makes me want to CTB more and more. It just feels so lonely everyday when you have no partner to talk to. The only reason that's keeping me from CTB are my 3 boys who tries to make me happy everyday. When she does finally leave and on my weeks without my boys, I fear I might succumb to it. I don't have alot of friends. I hate feeling this way everyday.

 

[Deleted member 1465]

I'm 45 and thought I had it all 8 months ago. A beautiful wife of 18 years, 3 wonderful boys, a house and a good job. Then my wife wanted to separate. Then I found out 2 weeks ago she was having an affair with someone she had fallen in love with. I'm still waiting for papers from her and I know she is torned about the welfare of the kids when it does happen. In addition, last week my dad passed away. The last 8 months have been a living hell for me trying to stay strong for my kids. Everyday that goes on makes me want to CTB more and more. It just feels so lonely everyday when you have no partner to talk to. The only reason that's keeping me from CTB are my 3 boys who tries to make me happy everyday. When she does finally leave and on my weeks without my boys, I fear I might succumb to it. I don't have alot of friends. I hate feeling this way everyday.

Bless you, that's awful, everything hitting you at once. My thoughts are with you.

 

[SuicidalSymphonies]

I've sacrificed so much for others. To be in love, to be held, to be understood. Once they tire of my illnesses, they're gone. It happens every single time. Being sick is like a deterrent for love or happiness. I feel lonely every day. Even if there's tons of people around, I just feel isolated. I don't belong. People judge and point fingers and assume they know what's going on with me and I don't say a word because the last time I even bothered, nobody listened to me. "it can't be that bad!!! You're fine!" actually it is, and no I'm not. But people don't care whatsoever.. I've given up..

 

[CrushedHopes]

"it can't be that bad!!! You're fine!" actually it is, and no I'm not. But people don't care whatsoever.. I've given up..

People that say that are self-righteous asshats that think they could speak for us..... when they really can't.

 

[Deleted member 1465]

I've sacrificed so much for others. To be in love, to be held, to be understood. Once they tire of my illnesses, they're gone. It happens every single time. Being sick is like a deterrent for love or happiness. I feel lonely every day. Even if there's tons of people around, I just feel isolated. I don't belong. People judge and point fingers and assume they know what's going on with me and I don't say a word because the last time I even bothered, nobody listened to me. "it can't be that bad!!! You're fine!" actually it is, and no I'm not. But people don't care whatsoever.. I've given up..

Yeah nearest and dearest get fed up with sickness. It's as if they think you are not getting better on purpose. They assume that it's not really that bad because they can't imagine their lives like that. It's very isolating. It takes a huge amount of courage just to meet each day.

 

[SuicidalSymphonies]

Yeah nearest and dearest get fed up with sickness. It's as if they think you are not getting better on purpose. They assume that it's not really that bad because they can't imagine their lives like that. It's very isolating. It takes a huge amount of courage just to meet each day.

It's true. I have an appointment today, tomorrow and the next day and I really don't want to go. But they're very important and as much as I feel it's a waste of time, if I have any hope of getting better before May, I want to try.

 

[Deleted member 1465]

It's true. I have an appointment today, tomorrow and the next day and I really don't want to go. But they're very important and as much as I feel it's a waste of time, if I have any hope of getting better before May, I want to try.

Then try you must. I sometimes feel like the fecking Terminator just continuing relentlessly regardless of how busted up I am.

 

[Bluefish]

It's true. I have an appointment today, tomorrow and the next day and I really don't want to go. But they're very important and as much as I feel it's a waste of time, if I have any hope of getting better before May, I want to try.

Good luck with your appointments, maybe you could find some relief. I hope you can gather enough energy to go