I'm trying to ctb asap. The problem is I'm at a treatment facility. I've been stockpiling benzos but not that many. They check my mail as well. I could probably get prescribed anti-emetic, but that's about it. I have like $75 to my bank account so can't really buy too much shit off the dark web, ideally would get F. Maybe my best bet is to get a PO Box near here and then order SN? I've been in physical/mental torment for the last 5 months so I don't mind a bit of pain. I would need something that would work within 8 hours, I.e. the longest I would be not accounted for by staff would be 8 hours.
We occasionally go to different towns nearby so maybe I could jump, but that's a little harsh. I'd rather go poisoning myself than leave a horribly disfigured mess behind. Tried calling local gun shops but I'm from out of state so they are having trouble knowing if I can buy a gun anyway. But I'm 100% keen on doing this. I am not being impulsive. I believe it is the ethical thing for me to do. So any advice would be great. Thanks!
We occasionally go to different towns nearby so maybe I could jump, but that's a little harsh. I'd rather go poisoning myself than leave a horribly disfigured mess behind. Tried calling local gun shops but I'm from out of state so they are having trouble knowing if I can buy a gun anyway. But I'm 100% keen on doing this. I am not being impulsive. I believe it is the ethical thing for me to do. So any advice would be great. Thanks!
