living just to please someone

[404]

tbh it's hard to decide wether or not i should commit suicide already

the only thing that is keeping me alive still is my friend and i wish i can make them happy before i go

the problem is that i can't really do that and they want me to live "normally" (like they want me to find an actual purpose in life)

im very useless if i can't please them and i can't even live normally for them since i always go back to this cycle of being depressed for days

im just delaying the inevitable
is that even a good decision?

 

[Rack.-]

Your friend seems to be someone that really cares about you. Try thinking about how leaving this world would affect him and maybe you can use it as a reason to keep living... Besides, the decision to leave this world is always there and there's no need to rush it... I hope everything goes well with whatever you decide to do

 

[FuneralCry]

That does sound like such a tiring situation to be trapped in, but anyway I guess that after all only you know what is best for yourself, it's always a personal decision deciding what to do. Best wishes.