Venting Sick for the 4th time this winter. Worse than dying.

[alstroemeria55]

I seem to constantly be contracting some flu/covid and it's pissing me off at this point. I wish it wasn't this measly annoying snot fest where I can't breathe and I'm stuck in bed for a week every time. I'm so weak I can't work and I can't study. I'd much rather this illness was worse like some infection or something and I finally die. My body hates me anyway and I hate living. All this on top of my constantly fluctuating mental state is irritating me to hell. I want to just die already please. I've had enough of this sick deteriorating mindless world.
Literally nobody gives a shit about me anyway. I could die tomorrow and nobody would blink an eye. I expressed so much distress trying to get referred to a therapist and they can't even squeeze me in. I'm a fucking shit smear on this world. Please let me die already.

 

[5er50ji]

Going through this too, been having this weird covid like illness since november and I've not been able to come into work and have been falling behind in my studies. I physically can't even bring myself to get out of bed most days. I've done all the things, spoken to a dr, taken antibiotics, tried to be healthy but nothing helps I have no idea what this is. I'm also having sinus issues and cant bear the bad looks people will give me for sneezing or blowing my nose on a packed train so I've just been trying to get better from home. I was managing my depression pretty well before I got sick but now I've lost all hope. I feel awful. I hope you feel better soon OP, this is so shit honestly.

 

[spero_meliora]

it's been dreadful this winter. had a flu that wouldn't fuck off for three weeks recently.