Venting Living is a fucking pain in the ass

[SuicidalManiac]

I have exams in less than 2 days and I wanna fucking die. I just cant seem to study even if i want to and other people just say that Im lazy or that Im just playing around. Like yeah failing in your exams sounds a lot of fun.

When you wanna fucking die everything seems pointless. I dont wanna live. Living is such a fucking pain in the ass. I dont want to find a purpose, i dont have dreams and i dont want anything, i dont even want to be happy anymore. All I want to do is sleep forever!!!!!!!!!!

 

[T90-Alpha]

im feeling the exact same pain as you. Next month i'll have to take my final exams for High school. I wish i could sleep eternally, without having to feel pain or suffering. i doubt i'll be able to pass some of my final exams

 

[Kismet]

Life is pointless in general, we live and then die with some shit in the middle. We are guaranteed to die eventually one way or another though. Just go day-by-day and let propose find you

 

[SuicidalManiac]

Life is pointless in general, we live and then die with some shit in the middle. We are guaranteed to die eventually one way or another though. Just go day-by-day and let propose find you

Thank you so much for saying this

 

[locked*n*loaded]

How about this platitude from some do-gooder in the past: No one ever said that life was fucking easy. I always hated when people said shit like that to me.

 

[WorthlessTrash]

How about this platitude from some do-gooder in the past: No one ever said that life was fucking easy. I always hated when people said shit like that to me.

Too true. Except for some people, it really is easy. It's like why couldn't it be easy for me? T_T

 

[SuicidalManiac]

im feeling the exact same pain as you. Next month i'll have to take my final exams for High school. I wish i could sleep eternally, without having to feel pain or suffering. i doubt i'll be able to pass some of my final exams

Lol same

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Except for some people............... this is the problem, isn't it?

 

[FuneralCry]

Life is just a pointless experience that we go through for the sake of it, I personally see no point to living. Life is completely unnecessary. We only exist for the sake of existing, all that we do is just pass the time until we die. I am tired of suffering each day and more than anything I wish that I was never born. I also just want to sleep forever.

 

[OpheliasFlowers]

How about this platitude from some do-gooder in the past: No one ever said that life was fucking easy. I always hated when people said shit like that to me.

I hate that shortsighted, flippant platitude, too. And, that, combined with the concept (to me- and others, though- simply reality) that everything is pointless, really, and is glaringly pointless when you have depression/anxiety/etc...I *hate hate HATE* when people say "You can CHOOSE to be happy or not. You can CHOOSE your own life/destiny/blah blah blah" Well they have no idea how many times in my 5+ decades on this earth I've CHOSEN to not have all the health problems I do which have prevented me from going after and living the life I envisioned when I was a young girl and guess what? It didn't work to simply CHOOSE happiness. It's hard to be happy when you're in excrutiating physical pain daily and you're wasting away and your life consists of doctors and misery, not to mention the mental pain which can be equally as painful and debilitating. And its hard now, in my 50s to choose to be happy that I'm still in horrible pain and already in diapers and have no friends or family or money and opportunity and life has passed me by. If being happy was as simple as a choice, I know I would've accomplished that, as effort as I put into trying... but it's hard to beat depression and daily chronic pain and loss of agency and opportunity, especially a prolonged period of living that way. So people spewing the useless platitudes they toss around to make themselves feel like they 'did something to help' can please keep it to themselves.