Venting Life’s feeling heavy.

[SaintMary]

I'm defeated from the constant non stop of hectic energy that's enraptured my surroundings. There's a rising chance that I am going out the unplanned way,the unclean way. I'm afraid of failing in these already trying times. But I'm not doing this. This thing everyone's doing. I didn't want to do it norma. l I'm surely disinterested in life while everyone's in a panic. All the world is screaming and now it's just way too loud in my head. I welcome death but only my way. If it can't be done my planned way I'll try anything. I'm just so desperate to escapes the enclosing walls.

 

[faust]

Hello,
It is very sad your life is bringing you to this point.
I agree that the world is screaming, but we don't have to identify ourselves with this world.
Is there anything we can help you with?

 

[SaintMary]

Everyday I'm feeling worse. I planned a day and a way but my plans are becoming ruined as each day passes and I feel more hopeless than ever. I just needed the antimedic but can't even see a dr. Now... I no longer want to wait or see how this plays out. I just didn't want to feel any pain.

 

[Hopeindeath!]

I'm sorry your life is so bad right now.

 

[Oyoy]

Dito. I feel lost.