Zanexx
Dead
- Jul 15, 2018
- 189
I'm currently eating my (hopefully) last meal -pasta followed by a vegan ice cream sundae- at a jazz bar above a little independent cinema near the location I picked.
Today I will start my BBQ probably around 11 o'clock UK time and hope to be dead by the early hours. Within a couple of days my family, friends and ex long-term partner will find out, as well as possibly my old best friend of 10 years if the message is able to get to her.
I know I haven't been an active member for that long, but this place has become a refuge of sorts for me in recent weeks, so for that I'm grateful. I feel like I've got to know people on here and formed a connection with you all, which is something I've very rarely felt with people.
Regarding logistics, I just have a few last minute questions I'd like answers to if possible:
So basically, if I don't post for a week, the chances are I've been successful. If I am, I hope that all of have equal success when your time comes.
Wish me luck. It's been great getting to know you all.
Today I will start my BBQ probably around 11 o'clock UK time and hope to be dead by the early hours. Within a couple of days my family, friends and ex long-term partner will find out, as well as possibly my old best friend of 10 years if the message is able to get to her.
I know I haven't been an active member for that long, but this place has become a refuge of sorts for me in recent weeks, so for that I'm grateful. I feel like I've got to know people on here and formed a connection with you all, which is something I've very rarely felt with people.
Regarding logistics, I just have a few last minute questions I'd like answers to if possible:
- Avoiding damage to others. I've already taken most steps I can to avoid other people being harmed by the CO and this is very hypothetical. I guess I'm just trying to fend off anxiety. I've read a few posts from people on here who failed the CO method because the headaches and whatever else got too much for them, causing them to leave the tent/vehicle. Just in case this happens to me (which I don't think it will because I am very, very committed to succeeding... but just in case) is there any chance of the CO leaving through the door when I exit and harming other people nearby (by nearby, I mean in tents that could be up to three metres away, although I'll try to get the most secluded area I can) and if this did happen should I open the tent up to air it/remove the BBQ or just leave it closed until the next day? Will the CO disappear eventually by then of its own accord?
- I don't drink alcohol normally, but many people have suggested it helps as a sedative. If I do buy alcohol in the next few hours, what type should I buy and how much? I have valerian sleeping pills and co-codemol already (for any headaches)
- Should I use firelighter cubes or newspaper pieces in my chimney starter - or does it not matter which I use? I have firelighters already and can get a newspaper if need be
- I'm using a chimney starter with Weber briquettes. How long roughly should I have the briquettes in the chimney starter before dumping them in the BBQ bucket and then how long should I wait roughly before taking the BBQ inside? I don't want to take it inside when it's still smoking and flaming
So basically, if I don't post for a week, the chances are I've been successful. If I am, I hope that all of have equal success when your time comes.
Wish me luck. It's been great getting to know you all.
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