Dead beat dad

Dead beat dad

Enlightened
Mar 5, 2019
1,030
Hey everyone.

I haven't been around here for very long, and I've kinda lurked a bit but I have to say thank you to everyone here. It's nice to have a place online where we can talk safely about this sorta thing. Nice to have information about methods and such. Hopefully it's a step in the right direction for us as a society -to the day where someone can pass by their choice without fear of failure. Maybe thats just wishful thinking, who knows.

Anyway, I'm here to post a little goodbye thread. I thought I'd start it now and keep people updated with my preparations, and if I'm successful hopefully it'll be of some use to people. I'm 19yrs old, male, in England, ~5'9'' and ~63kgs.
Thats there for people to reference doses to if they feel the need, but I haven't done anything fancy with my doses, so :p

SN 250g from APC pure
Meto. Primperan 20*10mg from Greek ebay seller
Zantac 6*75mg from Amazon

Strikethroughs are done at the time of posting.
Here's my schedule (UK time):
Tues 23:00 10mg meto
Wed 07:00 10mg meto
Wed 15:00 10mg meto

Wed 23:00 10mg meto
Thur 07:00 10mg meto
Thur 15:00 10mg meto
Thur 18:00 Start fasting
Thur 23:00 10mg meto
Thur 23:15 225mg Zantac (Ranitidine)
Thur 23:45 Measure out 20g Sodium Nitrite
Fri 00:00 Take SN

I'll keep an eye on this thread, and when I get down to that last hour, I can update everyone with pics if some people would like some reference for the SN method.
Thanks again.
Hey brother I'm sorry that you're in such a dark place. I wish peace and freedom from suffering no matter how things pan out.
Good luck brother I hope you find the light.
DBD
 
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Mr. Hang Man

Mr. Hang Man

Just hanging around
Mar 11, 2019
69
So long friend, I'll keep watch of this thread for updates, but for now hugs and good luck, your gonna need it.
 
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Ashpac

Ashpac

Lost and always will be.
Jul 22, 2018
795
Hay im from the UK too. Northeast to be precise.

I hope the 6 hours of not eating is enough and works for you.

I wish you peace and farewell.
 
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Batstern

Batstern

Metalhead
Jan 28, 2019
69
Hay im from the UK too. Northeast to be precise.

I hope the 6 hours of not eating is enough and works for you.

I wish you peace and farewell.

Oh neat, northeast here too, Durham to be precise haha
 
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Ashpac

Ashpac

Lost and always will be.
Jul 22, 2018
795
Oh neat, northeast here too, Durham to be precise haha

Its nice there, i quite like visiting high force once a year.
I had considered jumping off that to land in the waterfall, but i dont wanna do anything that end ups on the news.
I wanna just disappear without being on facebook (hopefully).
 
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Mircea

Mircea

Member
Apr 15, 2019
83
A lot of people have done that. As they say on the net, if there are no pics it isn't real. If you are willing to livestream your sn death your death would likely be a Viral video/famous. Either way i understand your choice. Its your life after all, do as you wish. You don't own any of us anything.

I find comments like this a bit unfortunate. I don't think the reason most of us are here is to make a spectacle out of ending our lives, even if I can imagine some people might be following such threads for the thrill. This is mostly to help people with advice, so if they're determined they must end their lives they can at least do so painlessly and without much risk of failure.
 
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Escaper Boy

Escaper Boy

累坏了...
Apr 11, 2019
245
Thankfully I still have time to craft farewell poem before you leave.

Voyage

I see you waiting on the shore, your ship's adjusted
Ocean breeze glides along fleeting wave, unagitated
The voyage is ready, perhaps your heart is excited
Departing toward new horizon, feeling rejuvenated

No more words can be uttered, my prose is silenced
Stillness tunes of the dawn shall serve as elegy
I won't convey farewell eulogy, my heart is solemn
I shall join the voyage after I abound with energy
 
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Cevapcici

Student
Dec 30, 2018
146
Wow, 19 is pretty young for such a definitive decision. I hope you thought this though , and wish you to find peace.
 
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editredit22

Member
Jan 11, 2019
32
I googled metoclopramide and it takes 30-60 minutes to work and lasts for several hours. What is the reason behind taking it in 3 days in advance? Is it always 3 days?
 
Escaper Boy

Escaper Boy

累坏了...
Apr 11, 2019
245
I hope he made it successfully. Otherwise, I will consider different method.
 
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JadedGray

JadedGray

Life Eternal
Jul 24, 2018
991
They were online a while ago. Sorry it didn't go as planned?
 
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Ashpac

Ashpac

Lost and always will be.
Jul 22, 2018
795
They were online a while ago. Sorry it didn't go as planned?

Exactly what I was thinking. Im guessing they are still here. I hope everything is okay with you if you didnt pass or changed your mind.
 
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Macc Lad

Macc Lad

Specialist
Jan 22, 2019
300
Hey everyone.

I haven't been around here for very long, and I've kinda lurked a bit but I have to say thank you to everyone here. It's nice to have a place online where we can talk safely about this sorta thing. Nice to have information about methods and such. Hopefully it's a step in the right direction for us as a society -to the day where someone can pass by their choice without fear of failure. Maybe thats just wishful thinking, who knows.

Anyway, I'm here to post a little goodbye thread. I thought I'd start it now and keep people updated with my preparations, and if I'm successful hopefully it'll be of some use to people. I'm 19yrs old, male, in England, ~5'9'' and ~63kgs.
Thats there for people to reference doses to if they feel the need, but I haven't done anything fancy with my doses, so :p

SN 250g from APC pure
Meto. Primperan 20*10mg from Greek ebay seller
Zantac 6*75mg from Amazon

Strikethroughs are done at the time of posting.
Here's my schedule (UK time):
Tues 23:00 10mg meto
Wed 07:00 10mg meto
Wed 15:00 10mg meto

Wed 23:00 10mg meto
Thur 07:00 10mg meto
Thur 15:00 10mg meto
Thur 18:00 Start fasting
Thur 23:00 10mg meto
Thur 23:15 225mg Zantac (Ranitidine)
Thur 23:45 Measure out 20g Sodium Nitrite
Fri 00:00 Take SN

I'll keep an eye on this thread, and when I get down to that last hour, I can update everyone with pics if some people would like some reference for the SN method.
Thanks again.

lots of "lurkers" on here !!
 
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Soul

Soul

gate gate paragate parasamgate bodhi svaha
Apr 12, 2019
4,704
Batstern dear, please let us know how you are, if you can. We're concerned and wishing you well in any case.
 
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Macc Lad

Macc Lad

Specialist
Jan 22, 2019
300
Batstern dear, please let us know how you are, if you can. We're concerned and wishing you well in any case.

he's been online this morning......so looks like the plan went tits up!
 
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Soul

Soul

gate gate paragate parasamgate bodhi svaha
Apr 12, 2019
4,704
he's been online this morning......so looks like the plan went tits up!

Thanks but it would be good to hear from him, just to know whether he's ok.
 
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discokicks

discokicks

Student
Apr 19, 2019
121
Why are you killing yourself?
 
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Mr. Hang Man

Mr. Hang Man

Just hanging around
Mar 11, 2019
69
Any updates @Batstern ?
 
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Mort

Mort

No use to know one
Feb 15, 2019
622
Hey everyone.

I haven't been around here for very long, and I've kinda lurked a bit but I have to say thank you to everyone here. It's nice to have a place online where we can talk safely about this sorta thing. Nice to have information about methods and such. Hopefully it's a step in the right direction for us as a society -to the day where someone can pass by their choice without fear of failure. Maybe thats just wishful thinking, who knows.

Anyway, I'm here to post a little goodbye thread. I thought I'd start it now and keep people updated with my preparations, and if I'm successful hopefully it'll be of some use to people. I'm 19yrs old, male, in England, ~5'9'' and ~63kgs.
Thats there for people to reference doses to if they feel the need, but I haven't done anything fancy with my doses, so :p

SN 250g from APC pure
Meto. Primperan 20*10mg from Greek ebay seller
Zantac 6*75mg from Amazon

Strikethroughs are done at the time of posting.
Here's my schedule (UK time):
Tues 23:00 10mg meto
Wed 07:00 10mg meto
Wed 15:00 10mg meto

Wed 23:00 10mg meto
Thur 07:00 10mg meto
Thur 15:00 10mg meto
Thur 18:00 Start fasting
Thur 23:00 10mg meto
Thur 23:15 225mg Zantac (Ranitidine)
Thur 23:45 Measure out 20g Sodium Nitrite
Fri 00:00 Take SN

I'll keep an eye on this thread, and when I get down to that last hour, I can update everyone with pics if some people would like some reference for the SN method.
Thanks again.
Good luck wishing you all the best a little jealous here ;) :) that lovely long never ending sleep any eay all the best.
 
Batstern

Batstern

Metalhead
Jan 28, 2019
69
Hey everyone.
Thank you all for you support and kind words, it really means a lot. Death is a lot more intimidating when you have to confront it face to face, it seems.
I was just going to abandon this and pretend it never happened, but I thought it'd be better to be honest- incase people were gonna claim this as a bother success
Love you all
 
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Escaper Boy

Escaper Boy

累坏了...
Apr 11, 2019
245
Hey everyone.
Thank you all for you support and kind words, it really means a lot. Death is a lot more intimidating when you have to confront it face to face, it seems.
I was just going to abandon this and pretend it never happened, but I thought it'd be better to be honest- incase people were gonna claim this as a bother success
Love you all

Regardless of what happened, I wish things will get better for you soon. I think you had been through a lot. You deserve a break and rest. My best wish for your well-being. Hug.
 
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RedSalvation15

Member
Mar 13, 2019
38
Nothing to be ashamed of. Ending it is an incredible hard task, especially in the final minutes/seconds.
Still - I wish you all the best, as long as your life goes. Hopefully things change to the good for you.
 
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