Discussion Lack of emotional output causing physical output

[Naz667]

I have this lovely SUPER healthy habit of not expressing my emotions, primarily as I have no one to express them to. As such, I feel so restrained, to the point that I just want to physical throw all my strength into something. I bought an 8 pound sledgehammer for such purposes. Whenever I feel especially down in the depths, I just take the sledge hammer and abuse the tree in my back yard (I am very sorry tree but it is better you than someone or something owned by someone. Also, opening your flesh allows creatures to prosper, so it's not the most destructive thing).

I've engaged in a bit of hurtful activities towards myself with similar train of thought. Don't really think its for me. The sensation of physical pain is nice, as its kinda a rare feeling in the modern world, but I would run out of barely noticable real estate decently quickly.

I kinda just wanted to ask if anyone else has something similar. Does anyone feel the desire or act upon such desire, to physically break some shit from depression/helplessness/anything in this websites ballpark?

 

[sanctionedusage]

when i was younger i dismembered plushies i had when i had no more room to cut

your way reminds me of a rage room

 

[kunikuzushi]

Yes I have the urge to break things frequently because I feel so desperate to stop my pain. I'm usually able to stop myself, but recently I've destroyed my phone screen, cut up my blanket, and trashed my bathroom. I'm sorry you're going through this too.

 

[Naz667]

when i was younger i dismembered plushies i had when i had no more room to cut

your way reminds me of a rage room

Y'know thinking back to my childhood, I broke alot of furniture by putting holes in it and shit.

I'm sorry you're going through this too.

Thanks <3 ! It's nice to know a behavior isn't that abnormal

 

[violetforever]

Does anyone feel the desire or act upon such desire, to physically break some shit from depression/helplessness/anything in this websites ballpark?

when i'm hopelessly depressed, just looking around my room at everything i own and realizing how useless it is makes me want to tear my entire room apart.

 

[jerkbybile]

i used to be particularly bad for this when i was younger, though plates and glass were my main targets. the tree method is certainly far safer. know that you are not alone in your depression-fueled rage.

 

[eggsausagerice]

just looking around my room at everything i own and realizing how useless it is makes me want to tear my entire room apart.

the only reason i haven't started smashing and ripping everything in my room up is so that my sister can pawn everything i own or sell it online so she can have money for her college once i'm dead. if i destroy everything then i'll be more worthless

 

[Alpacachino]

Interesting. That actually seems like a good outlet. But I wonder if you can break rocks instead of a tree? That's what they have prisoners do, right? Who knows, maybe that's also a way to let them get all that pent up energy and frustration out.