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microwaved_dawg

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Nov 22, 2024
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I've been the quiet kid nearly all my life, always alone, completely ignored when I wasn't getting bullied. During middle school I hit an specially low point, having no one to talk to, really poor academic performance, being constantly pulled out of class by the school's psychologist (funny how we had on even though it was a public school, at least she was very nice).

After finishing middle school I wanted change and after a lot of begging to my parents I got the opportunity of attending to a private catholic high school. At first, I was very closed off and quiet, but everyone around me was just so nice, they became my friends and helped me overcome a lot of stuff. I became very talkative, I finally had the academic achievements and human connection I yearned for all my life, started getting in shape, started working on my projects, started investing to get money, started partying and I had never felt closer to God in my entire life. It was probably the peak of my life and the only worry I had was not feeling enough/deserving.

Fast forward to college, I'm now nearly two years into my electronics engineering degree and it's just like in middle school again. Little by little I lost it all, my academic performance gone in two semesters, started gaining a lot of weight, all the friends I had in my uni dumped me, drank away nearly all of my investment money, stopped going out, started speaking less and less and finally lost my will to live sometime last year.

I can't believe I really thought that those days were over, everything that goes up has to go down, and here I am. Last time I saw my highschool friends they literally told me I was not the same guy they met, and shit, I almost cried right there. I guess, I really never was that guy.
 
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bobblong

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Mar 15, 2023
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Brother , your so called friends are opportunists . Ignore them.
I know of a quote :

"A brave man, a real fighter is not measured by how many times he falls, but how many times he stands up."

— Rickson Gracie
 
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