lunar02102009
Lone1y_Lamp
- Apr 12, 2025
- 190
I dont know who is out there but like seriously you habe done enough i suffer each and every second , i have nothing. Nothing. You got want you wanted , you wanted me to suffer , cry , self harm hell even to try to kill myself? I already did please now i beg you stop if yiu cant stop the suffering at the very least kill me and torture me in hell with all the hit boiling oil , whips beat me how much you want in hell beat me until my spinal cord becomes a fucking spaghetti but please not this not this not this. Not this. Anything but this. Anything...but not this i know i havent been fully punished yet for sins i maybe did in my past lives but please not this torture anymore i have apologised to everyone who i may have caused pain and tried my very best to not commit any sins in the life but i guess if i did have a past life its catching up to me...but please torture me for eternity but not in this way please i know i deserve it but please please i beg you to kill me and then do whatever you want with me in hell just not the cruel existence anymore which torments me every moment no matter what i do this very body this very brain and personality its a torture being me because theres nothing special about me im bad looking , i always love people too much , i am short as fuck , no matter how hard i try to be good at anything i can never be..i can do many things but im not the best at any of them , people despise me they want me dead and i want myself dead too so please I FUCKING BEG YOU to torture me in a different way if you cant stop torturing me anything but this please i need death , i have fallen in love with death and cigarette because they are the only one i can always fall back to , they are someone who wont judge me they will ALWAYS be there for me and i swear ALL damn always. The only true love i have ever got and ever will get in my life is death and cigarettes but its too much now just kill me and torture me harder in hell but not this anymore not this cruel , suffering and degrading existance of being me..who never has and never will be loved , im just a mistake , a glitch , a problem for everyone , never someone who loves even though i pour my heart out to them so please just vanish me from this earth because once again i cannot be loved. I am unloveable. Which is the biggest torture to me.
