Dosage & method
In April I started Ketamine infusions, consisting of six sessions lasting an hour each with an IV to administer 40-65 mg of Ketamine. These infusions were roughly $350 each time. The trip alone is worth it. Your body and mind is SO different when under!!! After the infusions, I swapped over to prescription ketamine troches of the 100mg flavored marshmallow mint raspberry (troches = sublingual lozenges). A partnered pharmacy compounds the prescription and the Dr that did the infusions wrote the prescription for me without me even having to ask. The prescription is about $150 for 60 troches with the expectations I'd take one troche every other day and/or as needed. I had no insurance and was told insurance wouldn't cover it regardless.
The Good
I was stunned at the results. I'm not exaggerating when I say it changed my perspective entirely. Sounds that used to trigger panic attacks didn't bother me at all. I could smell so many new smells and I sincerely didn't feel depressed and I usually get so euphoric when I use Ketamine. Everything is so different. It is so amazing to feel relief.
Plus, the trips were so dreamy. I didn't know all those strange feelings and trippy world in my head could exist. It feels so wonderful when under - almost like what I imagine would be Nirvana.
The Bad
Unfortunately, it is expensive and just a temporary bandaid as the results are rather short term. For me, the happiness and no longer having suicidal ideation would only last a few hours or up to a day and a half... And, you can't do anything like driving or working for a bit after taking Ketamine cuz your body and mind are still hazy.
As well, the forgetfulness and confusion are pretty intense. There are chunks of missing memories - not like a drunk blackout but like a 'I remember doing (insert activity) but I also don't remember it." The level of confusion and forgetfulness might be best explained by the day I put a plate instead of a pan on top of the stove to make eggs or the five times in a row I went back in and out of the bedroom closet to get milk until I realized what I was doing.
Unexpectedly, getting better also made me worse too... Because I could see how happy I could be... How broken I really am with the sad realization of how many things actually did get to me everyday and how scared I am...
Recommendation
If you have the resources and time to give it a try, I highly recommend it. I also recommend you bring a loved one or pick very uplifting music.