blueclover_.
Better Never to Have Been: 2006, David Benatar
- Oct 11, 2021
- 668
I'm pangender, but my male and female sides are the ones that affect my daily life the most.
When i'm in my male gender, i feel confident and powerful. Sometimes even angrier than usual, ready to break anything that blocks my way. I usually don't care much about others when i'm in this male mode, as if i'm finally free and the rules mean nothing.
When i'm in my female gender, i want to act kind and soft toward others. I want to make new friends, i want to make everyone smile. In this mode, people's perception of me affects me so much. I often worry about the way they look at me even if it's 'normal' for others. My female character wants to be liked so bad, kind of like an attention whore.
Of course, no matter what gender i'm feeling that day, i'm always narcissistic. But when i'm in my female mode i also get more vulnerable and my narcissism is the only thing saving me from bad days. When i'm in my male mode i couldn't give a fuck about anything and my narcissism gives me a euphoric feeling of power and freedom. I LOVE my male side. I just want to be seen as a guy.
What's cool with being female anyway? Being pretty? Being put on a pedestal? Being underestimated? Being weak biologically and often socially? If there's a benefit of being a female human is that you can suck out your simps money and become a gold digger. It's just pathetic.
When i'm in my male gender, i feel confident and powerful. Sometimes even angrier than usual, ready to break anything that blocks my way. I usually don't care much about others when i'm in this male mode, as if i'm finally free and the rules mean nothing.
When i'm in my female gender, i want to act kind and soft toward others. I want to make new friends, i want to make everyone smile. In this mode, people's perception of me affects me so much. I often worry about the way they look at me even if it's 'normal' for others. My female character wants to be liked so bad, kind of like an attention whore.
Of course, no matter what gender i'm feeling that day, i'm always narcissistic. But when i'm in my female mode i also get more vulnerable and my narcissism is the only thing saving me from bad days. When i'm in my male mode i couldn't give a fuck about anything and my narcissism gives me a euphoric feeling of power and freedom. I LOVE my male side. I just want to be seen as a guy.
What's cool with being female anyway? Being pretty? Being put on a pedestal? Being underestimated? Being weak biologically and often socially? If there's a benefit of being a female human is that you can suck out your simps money and become a gold digger. It's just pathetic.
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