Sadgirl17
Member
- Oct 10, 2020
- 7
Hi everyone
First of all,my English is bad,I'm sorry
The last 5/6 months I've been struggling with suicidal thoughts,I had very strong urges to hurt myself,but i didn't do anything,cuz I don't want to die
I still struggle sometimes,but I feel better now
Anyways ,i made a promise to myself that if I'll want to kill myself someday,I will wait until I'm 35 ,I'm 21 years old now,maybe it's stupid,I don't know
I have no friends,no boyfriend,low self esteem,poor social skills,mental health issues,but I'm not ready to give up
I want to try to change some things that make me unhappy(not sure if I can) and I still have some hope
Maybe it is not the right place to post this,but I wanted to post it on SS
There a many wonderful people here,and i know that SS brings comfort to many people,but unfortunately for me it's the opposite.Seeing people's struggles,their pain make me very sad,and affects my mental health in a bad way,so i can't stay here:/
I've been here for almost 2 months and registered just to write this post,probably will delete this page after reading the comments
Today I don't feel good again,I think I need to get back on my medication,and also I want to buy a small puppy,but I don't have money yet,so I need to find a job first
Sorry if i wrote many unnecessary things ,I just wanted to share my thoughts with someone,that's it
Wish you all peace
Goodbye
First of all,my English is bad,I'm sorry
The last 5/6 months I've been struggling with suicidal thoughts,I had very strong urges to hurt myself,but i didn't do anything,cuz I don't want to die
I still struggle sometimes,but I feel better now
Anyways ,i made a promise to myself that if I'll want to kill myself someday,I will wait until I'm 35 ,I'm 21 years old now,maybe it's stupid,I don't know
I have no friends,no boyfriend,low self esteem,poor social skills,mental health issues,but I'm not ready to give up
I want to try to change some things that make me unhappy(not sure if I can) and I still have some hope
Maybe it is not the right place to post this,but I wanted to post it on SS
There a many wonderful people here,and i know that SS brings comfort to many people,but unfortunately for me it's the opposite.Seeing people's struggles,their pain make me very sad,and affects my mental health in a bad way,so i can't stay here:/
I've been here for almost 2 months and registered just to write this post,probably will delete this page after reading the comments
Today I don't feel good again,I think I need to get back on my medication,and also I want to buy a small puppy,but I don't have money yet,so I need to find a job first
Sorry if i wrote many unnecessary things ,I just wanted to share my thoughts with someone,that's it
Wish you all peace
Goodbye