I could go on and talk to a ""close"" person about depression for example, or a depressive like state, or simply not enjoying life, that person will then start using his whole array of empty platitudes that they learned in their pathetic little life to try and convince me that I have two choices: to either be happy or to continue to suffer as I have. After I listen to them ramble, I tell them that I won't do neither and that my end plan is suicide and they revert to empty platitudes and empty words like "oh no, don't do it, you're loved"; be quiet you worm, insect, useless pile of carbon and oxygen, 30 seconds ago you were having a mental jacking off session about how superior your point of view was and how you perfectly knew the answer to all my problems, your ego was overflowing and now when faced with an actual problem that you know you can't bullshit yourself out of, you revert to the level of a third grader?
There is no difference between the average person and ChatGPT , ChatGPT being this impressive to some people really just shows how unimpressive and predictable most of the populace is.
Also why am I talking about these things with my acquaintances/family? (what I typed happened a couple of days ago but I can't sleep so I've been ruminating about) I literally made a post about 3 weeks ago talking about how I should cut my time talking to them (and I did somewhat, I only talked to two of these people once in 3 weeks, it's just that I should cut it all together at this point) , honestly no clue, today I was asked why I was being abrasive and I just couldn't be a good little dog and say "don't think about it, I'm fine" , no mother fucker, you don't demand to know why I'm abrasive and then back pedal once the going gets though, you asked for it , if you asked for something that you shouldn't have; immediately apologise and forget about it, but their ego won't let them so instead of admitting that they basically riled me up they end up saying I'm the abrasive asshole.
I don't know, I think most of my problems come from people, I think that I should just cut all ties and if I die of hunger or simply choose to take my SN , I can at least die with the last few weeks spend in peace without having my day ruined by needing to remember why I'm suicidal in the first place because some idiot clay person asks "why are you like this", hey piece of shit, everytime you ask, I have to REMEMBER TO BE ABLE TO ANSWER TO YOU and it fucks my day up just a tiny bit, that tiny bit that it fucks up is enough to tip the balance over and send me into a spiral, I'm already thinking about dying 24/7 , I don't want to remember every single bad thing that happened to me ON TOP OF THAT; Unless of course they are trying to recreate some sick experiment to see how deranged one can get which might bite them in the ass if the killing myself part doesn't get to me first.
There is no difference between the average person and ChatGPT , ChatGPT being this impressive to some people really just shows how unimpressive and predictable most of the populace is.
Also why am I talking about these things with my acquaintances/family? (what I typed happened a couple of days ago but I can't sleep so I've been ruminating about) I literally made a post about 3 weeks ago talking about how I should cut my time talking to them (and I did somewhat, I only talked to two of these people once in 3 weeks, it's just that I should cut it all together at this point) , honestly no clue, today I was asked why I was being abrasive and I just couldn't be a good little dog and say "don't think about it, I'm fine" , no mother fucker, you don't demand to know why I'm abrasive and then back pedal once the going gets though, you asked for it , if you asked for something that you shouldn't have; immediately apologise and forget about it, but their ego won't let them so instead of admitting that they basically riled me up they end up saying I'm the abrasive asshole.
I don't know, I think most of my problems come from people, I think that I should just cut all ties and if I die of hunger or simply choose to take my SN , I can at least die with the last few weeks spend in peace without having my day ruined by needing to remember why I'm suicidal in the first place because some idiot clay person asks "why are you like this", hey piece of shit, everytime you ask, I have to REMEMBER TO BE ABLE TO ANSWER TO YOU and it fucks my day up just a tiny bit, that tiny bit that it fucks up is enough to tip the balance over and send me into a spiral, I'm already thinking about dying 24/7 , I don't want to remember every single bad thing that happened to me ON TOP OF THAT; Unless of course they are trying to recreate some sick experiment to see how deranged one can get which might bite them in the ass if the killing myself part doesn't get to me first.
