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DarkJason

DarkJason

Angry subhuman loser
Oct 24, 2025
38
I just bought a shotgun today. I've been telling my mom that I bought it for sport shooting, even though I'm actually planning on using it to put an end to my sad and pathetic life. She's pretty anti-gun, and was initially nervous about me having it, but is letting me keep it in the house under the condition that I don't bring ammo into the home.

I'm gonna have to find some way to sneak ammo past her, because I'm intent on killing myself before the end of this year. I've been wanting to die for over four years now, and I have finally managed to obtain the object that I've been wanting to do it with. I hope that I can be free soon, free from my miserable existence and this shithole of a world. I'm just completely done with life's bullshit at this point.
 
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locked*n*loaded

locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
9,598
Shouldn't be too hard to sneak shells into a house, at least wouldn't think so. 12 ga?
 
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imontheloose

imontheloose

Aspiring corpse
Jan 15, 2025
174
You can always bring a few slugs into the house via a bag be it a shopping bag or whatever. If she insists on searching you every time you enter the house then stuff a slug or two down your underwear and sneak it past her.
 
SomewhereNew

SomewhereNew

idk
Nov 2, 2025
88
I have a shotgun as well. I don't wanna be found though with a bursted melon. So I might go in the woods where the wildlife will pick me apart before I can traumatize somebody.
 
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58Alice85

58Alice85

Autogynephile
Aug 31, 2025
378
Shotgun to the head is the method with the lowest survival rate.
So I guess you will not be having most of the worries and problems of the users of this site.
 
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eternalpace

Student
Oct 18, 2025
197
I picked up a handgun a few days ago. Once I take care of some pending issues, I'll finally be able to call it a day after unsuccessful attempts with another method several years ago.
 
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NormallyNeurotic

NormallyNeurotic

Everything is going to be okay ⋅ he/him
Nov 21, 2024
930
Do you plan to do it in your home? I assume so, otherwise you wouldn't need to sneak ammo in.
 
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dearlydeparted44

Specialist
May 21, 2025
318
I picked up a handgun a few days ago. Once I take care of some pending issues, I'll finally be able to call it a day after unsuccessful attempts with another method several years ago.
This is my method.
 
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traingirl

traingirl

I was good. I was really good.
Oct 7, 2025
329
I picked up a handgun a few days ago. Once I take care of some pending issues, I'll finally be able to call it a day after unsuccessful attempts with another method several years ago.
Twins lol
 
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terribleguy

terribleguy

Member
Nov 4, 2025
13
I just bought a shotgun today. I've been telling my mom that I bought it for sport shooting, even though I'm actually planning on using it to put an end to my sad and pathetic life. She's pretty anti-gun, and was initially nervous about me having it, but is letting me keep it in the house under the condition that I don't bring ammo into the home.

I'm gonna have to find some way to sneak ammo past her, because I'm intent on killing myself before the end of this year. I've been wanting to die for over four years now, and I have finally managed to obtain the object that I've been wanting to do it with. I hope that I can be free soon, free from my miserable existence and this shithole of a world. I'm just completely done with life's bullshit at this point.
I'm assuming you're in America. Man holy shit I wish i could get a shotgun here- I mean I can but i really doubt I'd get approved LMAO. Good luck with getting those shells.
 
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TheHolySword

TheHolySword

empty heart
Nov 22, 2024
1,267
I hope you find your peace
 
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Razerx17

Razerx17

I want a nothing burger hold the happening sauce
Mar 12, 2025
11
i hope you finally find the peace you deserve
 
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barelyholdingon

Member
Apr 25, 2025
47
I have a shotgun as well. I don't wanna be found though with a bursted melon. So I might go in the woods where the wildlife will pick me apart before I can traumatize somebody.
Don't you think a half eaten mutilated corpse that has been torn apart by animals would be traumatizing also lol
 
Hime

Hime

nyaaa~
Nov 24, 2025
79
I truly hope you find your peace, I wish you well. But please don't expose someone to that direct trauma by doing it in your own mother's home. You deserve the rest, but please don't hurt anyone else in the process.
 
DarkJason

DarkJason

Angry subhuman loser
Oct 24, 2025
38
Fuck. My mom's basically forcing me to sell the gun. I can't fight back against her demands, or else she might get suspicious or figure out that I was planning to use the gun to eventually kill myself. If that happens, I'll almost certainly get sent to an institution and have my gun rights taken away forever.

I think I'm just gonna put my plans to CTB off indefinitely, at least until I can get access to guns again. I don't feel comfortable using any other method. Guns seem the least risky to me.
 
Liebestod

Liebestod

I’m going to die in 2026 (2006-2026) 🔜
Mar 15, 2025
680
Fuck. My mom's basically forcing me to sell the gun. I can't fight back against her demands, or else she might get suspicious or figure out that I was planning to use the gun to eventually kill myself. If that happens, I'll almost certainly get sent to an institution and have my gun rights taken away forever.

I think I'm just gonna put my plans to CTB off indefinitely, at least until I can get access to guns again. I don't feel comfortable using any other method. Guns seem the least risky to me.
As someone who got their gun taken away by the cops, got sent to the mental hospital and will most likely lose their rights to own a gun, do whatever it takes to not lose your rights even if it means selling it and getting another one down the line.
 
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