just a random thought of mine

[Cauliflour]

I have thoughts fairly often when it comes to romance and alike about intentionally trying to get into a toxic relationship to get insulted and used and abused and I think to myself "wow that's hotttt", but then I actually use my common sense and realise the abuser wouldn't be crafting glorious insults or kicking me in the shin as a greeting: they'd probably do shit like sell my manga collection, make me eat warm shit freshly squeezed and make me wear tacky lingerie in public for some obscure fetish site. I've found that drags me back to reality, which is good if you're a horny masochist with no good way to soothe those feelings because porn is crappy. I wanna become a cool, badass woman in a full suit and tie with fluffy hair and bold makeup, I can't be seen looking like some pathetic waste of a person: it'll ruin my image! It's probably gonna happen some point in my life though cause I've got a triple whammy of taboos: autism, lesbianism and masochism! Nobody in hell is gonna give me advice on consent!

Not that it matters anyway: I really doubt someone like me, who can't even have a proper conversation for more than 7 minutes, could ever reach that stage. Guess I'll just morph into a somewhat attractive incel then...

 

[NihilDoll]

Ok... not gonna lie, i'm a tad confused how that fits in here
Or really what to say here. The first half reads like a masochist's bucket list, the latter half negates it... i'm just SO confused

 

[Cauliflour]

Ok... not gonna lie, i'm a tad confused how that fits in here
Or really what to say here. The first half reads like a masochist's bucket list, the latter half negates it... i'm just SO confused

That's fair, I'm an awful writer.

 

[Aflame5926]

That's fair, I'm an awful writer.

ya not the only one.
im dysletic as F.

i would say retry it again

 

[Cauliflour]

ya not the only one.
im dysletic as F.

i would say retry it again

It doesn't matter anyway, my thoughts make no sense. I have no trauma, no good reason as to why I want to die, it's just something that's developed within me and taken over me. Also it's late and I have a tendency to do a bit of a mad ramble here, but you're new to this site so you wouldn't've seen my many nonsensical posts.

 

[Aflame5926]

but you're new to this site so you wouldn't've seen my many nonsensical posts.

pretty much wont deny it.

i just love the banter here so im just responding and see if i either can make somebody laugh or help out.
but tho i may sound ok my head is also F

Also it's late and I have a tendency to do a bit of a mad ramble here

dw ill mad respond to topics atm anyway. so we will meet again xD

 

[Cauliflour]

i just love the banter here so im just responding and see if i either can make somebody laugh or help out.
but tho i may sound ok my head is also F

thank you, mysterious A on a red background...

 

[Aflame5926]

thank you, mysterious A on a red background...

i know right . it bother me too but i just dont feel like putting a avater in.

idk im weird

 

[Cauliflour]

i know right . it bother me too but i just dont feel like putting a avater in.

idk im weird

My avatar is some doodle I did over a year ago while I was drawing something actually good, the bar for profile pictures here isn't very high.

 

[Aflame5926]

My avatar is some doodle I did over a year ago while I was drawing something actually good, the bar for profile pictures here isn't very high.

. . . . . . . looking at your profile . . . . . . .

can you doodle something for me something terrible yet funny?

 

[Cauliflour]

. . . . . . . looking at your profile . . . . . . .

can you doodle something for me something terrible yet funny?

 

[Aflame5926]

View attachment 199381

damn it the cropping sucks lmk try if i can recrop it

 

[Cauliflour]

damn it the cropping sucks lmk try if i can recrop it

holy shit, you're actually using that as a pfp!? Damn, I would've put in more effort if I knew that lol

 

[Aflame5926]

holy shit, you're actually using that as a pfp!? Damn, I would've put in more effort if I knew that lol

its fine, why so serious? thanks for it tho. im a pretty random person so this is perfect xD

 

[Cauliflour]

its fine, why so serious? thanks for it tho. im a pretty random person so this is perfect xD

here's it but square, should fit better.

 

[Aflame5926]

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here's it but square, should fit better.

there we go,

i do hate children tho XDDDD

 

[Cauliflour]

there we go,

i do hate children tho XDDDD

It's a reference to how many posts I've seen here about people talking about how they hate kids. Seen one where a load of people were advocating for eugenics because they hated how they were born ugly and I was just sitting there like, "what the fuck am I reading"