Jealous of the dead

[ihatemylife]

You know your life is in a pretty sad state of affairs when you hear someone died and you actually find yourself being jealous.

 

[BlazingBob]

You know your life is in a pretty sad state of affairs when you hear someone died and you actually find yourself being jealous.

I've felt that way for a very long time. Like whenever I'm in a cemetery I notice how peaceful it is and how the people there are free from this hellish existence and the drudgery it entails.

 

[Rogue Proxy]

I've felt that way for a very long time. Like whenever I'm in a cemetery I notice how peaceful it is and how the people there are free from this hellish existence and the drudgery it entails.

This reminds me of a passage from Oscar Wilde's The Canterville Ghost: "Death must be so beautiful. To lie in the soft brown earth, with the grasses waving above one's head, and listen to silence. To have no yesterday, and no tomorrow. To forget time, to forget life, to be at peace."

 

[day]

I specifically feel jealous when I hear of someone going through a successfully CTB'ing. I envy those who have gone before me to rid themselves so such a futile existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

I certainly very much envy those who are free from this awful world, I think it's a completely understandable way to feel.
In my case I could never envy anyone who exists as with existence comes the ability to suffer endlessly, I see nothing desirable about that, I only envy those who are gone as death is true relief from suffering, one cannot be harmed by not existing, it just sounds so incredibly peaceful to sleep for all eternity.

I really admire those who manage to leave on their own terms as I see so much beauty in the thought of permanent nothingness.

 

[Meditation guide]

Yes I do feel envious to hear someone has gotten the dying over with. Then I wonder if they would be envious of me for being alive. Maybe it's not as good to be dead as we imagine it.