I've tried everything

[SomewhereAlongThe]

This life has nothing to offer me. I'm sorry but I don't want to spend the next 56 years of my life doing something mediocre. I looked for a passion or a talent that I have, and I've turned up with nothing. Either I am passionate about it but don't have the ability to do it, or I'm not passionate about it and have the ability to do it. I've tried mathematics, writing, sculpting, drawing, etc. I am also autistic, and it seems my autism hinders everything that I do.

I've decided that death is better than this life. This life is unfair, and brutal. I watch people around me find something they are into and are more than capable of doing, and I feel sullen. Please don't tell me I can find something, because I've tried, and there's no hope.

 

[FuneralCry]

I also see existence as really cruel, it's so cruel to me how there's all this suffering. But anyway I wish you the best, I hope you find peace.

 

[LunarLight]

I feel for you. I'm autistic as well, I know how hard it is.
Sending you love