Venting Ive ruined everything. My boyfriend might be leaving me and im done

[SHThrowAway213]

I finally got myself a great guy, been together 2 years.
I may of ruined it with my addictions and temperature.
Massive alcoholic but when my brain likes something it will crave it.
I also have a poison tongue and know how to use it.
I got caught out and has a massive flare up and he won't recover from it.
This is the only time I've felt like this in years, I mean the actual planning stage.
But now I've gone from just thinking it to actually planning it again.
I knew I couldn't escape my fate.

 

[The anhedonic one]

I've been through this exact same thing. I have clinical depression and borderline personality disorder, and used to be a heavy drinker. I pushed away someone I loved deeply due to my dysfunctional brain and addiction.
I thought they would forgive me but they never did.
It crushed me .
So sorry you are going through this. It's a hellish experience.

 

[AllFoxedOut]

alcohol is a damaging poison. I'm also an alcoholic but don't have any relationships really. I mainly just stay drunk in my bed

 

[Fabi_2312]

Im very sorry to hear that. I understand that he left because its very hard to be in such relationship.
But the cause is not your fault. Addiction and Mental Illnesses are "cureable" . Maybe if you show him, you want to recover, he will come back.