Venting It's getting close and I'm feeling numb

[Reflection]

5 days before I attempt, I feel like there are so many emotions inside me that are being supressed, I can feel them "there" but the numbness overshadows them, I also noticed that my tears basically dried up...in a way it's like knowing that the nightmare will soon be over...I just hope it won't be so painful.

 

[Davey40210]

Yeah.. Im hoping to do it tomorrow. I also noticed with the date getting closer that weird things start happening. I have had shaky hands all day today and not been able to focus on anything.

Good luck to you and hope we both get a peaceful transition.

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope that you find peace from all the suffering, best wishes.

 

[deletedaccount30982]

I feel the same way. I alternate between running on complete autopilot to feeling horrified that it might fail. Sometimes I get hit with deep anger at the way things have played out. I just need to be able to turn my emotions off when the moment comes to avoid any error. Or be angry enough to allow the anger to drive me.

 

[shame]

I feel the same way. I alternate between running on complete autopilot to feeling horrified that it might fail. Sometimes I get hit with deep anger at the way things have played out. I just need to be able to turn my emotions off when the moment comes to avoid any error. Or be angry enough to allow the anger to drive me.

It's just the way I feel right now.. horrified, but mostly deep, deep anger. How to turn those fucking emotions off? I don't even have benzo..
Have you already made final decision?