Venting It’s been rough

[BlueButterfly111]

It's been rough, waiting for the Sn to come for almost 2 months, and it never came yet. Honestly, I don't think that it's going to come, so disappointing… it's not DMCs fault, it's the U.S. postal service. But it does suck that I basically just flushed over $100 down the drain, and can't even get a refund.

But anyways, I'm going to try to reorder it at the end of this month/beginning of next month if it doesn't come. And I'm also going to try a different source that I think is credible! Let's hope that the U.S. postal system can manage not to fuck up with at least one of the packages.

I'm a little worried though about if I'm gonna have enough money to order both, because I also need money for the Uber and a hotel room, once I get the Sn. I might have to try to do some kind of side job or something to make money. But I think I might be able to make it work.

The big problem is, I'm having a lot of trouble coping, and controlling my emotions. I'm trying not to lash out, and act normal and stay strong, but it's so hard. My life is so unfair, I'm so disappointed about the Sn not coming, I wanted to be dead already. Now I'm having physical health issues due to mental problems that I can't explain.

Each day I just feel more and more out of place in this world. I'm tired of being here, and tired of having to do things, I'm for sure ready to die.

So it's just been really rough, but I guess that's a little update on my situation :(

 

[ForeverCaHa]

Hope you're not feeling too rough!

The waiting really is excruciating. It feels like we're just killing time each day until we're able to do what we need to do. I've ended up sleeping most of the day and isolating myself as much as possible, mindlessly going through YouTube until I can sleep. I don't have any work/school responsibilities at the moment though, so probably not doable for everyone.

As always, wishing you the best!!

 

[Michi_Violeta]

Life just can't be fair to some of us, I'm sorry to hear you're having so many issues sourcing SN. Either the one you already ordered comes through or the new one does, but hopefully there's a solution. It's a shame, were we in the same country I'd gladly share my SN, ended up buying 500g for the equivalent of $50 and it's supposed to arrive soon. I can only hope you and him meet again very, very soon, somewhere beyond the pain and frustrations of this fucking world.

Keep us posted, rooting for you!

 

[BlueButterfly111]

Life just can't be fair to some of us, I'm sorry to hear you're having so many issues sourcing SN. Either the one you already ordered comes through or the new one does, but hopefully there's a solution. It's a shame, were we in the same country I'd gladly share my SN, ended up buying 500g for the equivalent of $50 and it's supposed to arrive soon. I can only hope you and him meet again very, very soon, somewhere beyond the pain and frustrations of this fucking world.

Keep us posted, rooting for you!

Awww, thank you so much! That's really sweet, I hope to be reunited with him always. By the way I did try to message you, but it didn't work for some reason. I've had this issue before on this website. But if you ever want to try again, you can anytime, we might have to try it multiple times lol. Thank you again! I will post updates on the situation.

 

[Michi_Violeta]

Awww, thank you so much! That's really sweet, I hope to be reunited with him always. By the way I did try to message you, but it didn't work for some reason. I've had this issue before on this website. But if you ever want to try again, you can anytime, we might have to try it multiple times lol. Thank you again! I will post updates on the situation.

Hey, no worries, I understand people taking time to reply and I'll try messaging you again in a moment to see if it works out. Our pain is different, but we both miss someone so much that we can't comprehend life after they left, so I can only empathize and wish you the best: yours is a story that makes me wish there's an actual afterlife!