It's been a while

[bus catcher]

Hello everyone. It has been a long time since I last posted. Several months ago in 2024, I had planned to run away from home to commit suicide. I was very mentally unwell at the time and made many mistakes while trying to run away which caused my family to find me. Now that I think about it most of my suicide attempts were not well thought out. I was sent to the psych ward at a university and it was surprisingly not bad. For the first time in a while, I felt safe there and I learned a lot from others I met in there. I eventually came to several realizations about myself and even resolved things with my family to start anew. I've been on the path to recovery now but it's not been easy. I still struggle with lots of things and still have that feeling of hopelessness but there's now a glimmer of hope that I'm clinging to. I hope it does not fade away. Thank you to everyone on this site. This place is like a second home to me where I feel free to express myself and not be afraid to talk about my desire not to exist. I still prefer death to life but I'm willing to try living again. I still have some more posts I want to make but then I'll move to recovery. Sorry if this post is not well written. I was struggling to write this for a long time due to posting anxiety but tonight I just said to myself do it and so here I am. If you made it this far thank you for reading :)

 

[whywere]

Welcome back, it is great having you back!

Reading your post tells me just how caring you are towards others and yourself.

You are strong and a wonderful sunrise always awaits you.

Walter