Discussion It is supposed to be today

[weallhaveourghosts]

It is supposed to be today. Today on this dreary rainy cloudy day. I don't know if I have the energy to keep going. I've had this date in my mind for a while. Just far enough from Christmas to not ruin it for anyone. So why not try?

 

[UnrulyNightmare]

I don't know your reasons not to try. But wishing you peace either way

 

[Terrible_Life]

It is supposed to be today. Today on this dreary rainy cloudy day. I don't know if I have the energy to keep going. I've had this date in my mind for a while. Just far enough from Christmas to not ruin it for anyone. So why not try?

Did it stress you a lot the days before this day? Were you anxious all the time knowing the day of your suicide comes closer and closer? Do you now feel much more calm?

 

[weallhaveourghosts]

Did it stress you a lot the days before this day? Were you anxious all the time knowing the day of your suicide comes closer and closer? Do you now feel much more calm?

I'm not anxious at all. I think I've been calm this whole time. The thought of what if I stay alive gives me way more anxiety.

 

[fruitninjamaster]

Whatever happens you will be okay, we are here for you.

 

[itsgone2]

I'm not anxious at all. I think I've been calm this whole time. The thought of what if I stay alive gives me way more anxiety.

I feel the same way. But here I sit. Choosing torture over just ending it all already. You seem stuck as well

 

[weallhaveourghosts]

I feel the same way. But here I sit. Choosing torture over just ending it all already. You seem stuck as well

Not so much stuck just waiting for the right time. It's too early where I am to do anything.

 

[Realog11]

It is supposed to be today. Today on this dreary rainy cloudy day. I don't know if I have the energy to keep going. I've had this date in my mind for a while. Just far enough from Christmas to not ruin it for anyone. So why not try?

What's your method

 

[Terrible_Life]

I'm not anxious at all. I think I've been calm this whole time. The thought of what if I stay alive gives me way more anxiety.

But if you are not anxious at all about ctb then why didn't you coomit suicidd today if this was your chosen day? I mean if I had 0 anxiety etc and I'd be alone at home I'd do it right now I'd take my rope go to the woodbeam build my set up climb the ladder put the noose on and step off the ladder so that there would be no tomorrow or the day after tomorrow etc no more suffering but unfortunately I have anxiety and si ….

 

[weallhaveourghosts]

But if you are not anxious at all about ctb then why didn't you coomit suicidd today if this was your chosen day? I mean if I had 0 anxiety etc and I'd be alone at home I'd do it right now I'd take my rope go to the woodbeam build my set up climb the ladder put the noose on and step off the ladder so that there would be no tomorrow or the day after tomorrow etc no more suffering but unfortunately I have anxiety and si ….

I'm still doing it or well I plan to at least I just gotta time things right.

What's your method

I'd rather not say. If some reason I can't go through with it though I have SN as backup.

 

[darksouls]

however you decide,
I wish you the best, I hope you find relief from suffering

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find the freedom you search for, I wish you the best.