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[Baisley]

I have been trying to hang myself for the last couple of weeks now. I have had zero success until today. I have a thinner rope so I decided to double the rope up around my neck. I then hung from the top of my door dropping down on my little ladder. I then don't know what happened, I must of went unconscious for the first time ever. I woke up disoriented with a racing heart and I was wet, like I literally peed myself. Does this mean, I was close to death? I should have stayed all disoriented in the position that, I was in but I stood up and then took the noose off. The weird thing is everytime,I practiced hanging before with this rope it hurt, but today it didn't hurt at all. I am just kind of freaked out right now because I have never been unconscious before and hanging always seemed so difficult and painful. Today it all happened so fast and it didn't hurt. I am just trying to figure out if I was indeed cleaning close to death, if I didn't stand up.

 

[fishperson]

How much time were u hanging? Any clue?
Also wondering why did u wake up , i didnt know we could gain consciousness back

 

[I_go_in]

I have been trying to hang myself for the last couple of weeks now. I have had zero success until today. I have a thinner rope so I decided to double the rope up around my neck. I then hung from the top of my door dropping down on my little ladder. I then don't know what happened, I must of went unconscious for the first time ever. I woke up disoriented with a racing heart and I was wet, like I literally peed myself. Does this mean, I was close to death? I should have stayed all disoriented in the position that, I was in but I stood up and then took the noose off. The weird thing is everytime,I practiced hanging before with this rope it hurt, but today it didn't hurt at all. I am just kind of freaked out right now because I have never been unconscious before and hanging always seemed so difficult and painful. Today it all happened so fast and it didn't hurt. I am just trying to figure out if I was indeed cleaning close to death, if I didn't stand up.

You probably actually closed your carotid artery successfully which is the entire goal. You're supposed to pass out quickly and your body weight keeps it shut until you die.

 

[Baisley]

How much time were u hanging? Any clue?
Also wondering why did u wake up , i didnt know we could gain consciousness back

I really have no clue. I don't think, I hung very long. I had to of been unconscious, I was all disoriented and felt really groggy. It felt like how someone feels when they are sedated. It was really weird and when I noticed, I had peed myself that made it even weirder for me.

You probably actually closed your carotid artery successfully which is the entire goal. You're supposed to pass out quickly and your body weight keeps it shut until you die.

I passed out really fast, that much I do know. I had zero pain which is so weird because you t was always painful before. I think maybe doubling my rope up is what made this successful this time, if only I didn't decide to stand up. I will attempt this again over the weekend or next week. I live with someone and have a teen, so I need to wait for my next opportunity, when they are gone.

 

[Shadows From Hell]

Hard to tell. If your feet were close enough to the floor, or your ladder, your SI may have kicked in and you stood up, loosening the tightness of the rope allowing you to breathe.

It's common for people to pee or poop when they die because all their muscles are relaxed, and you are no longer forcing to hold it in.

So it's a pretty good possibility you were knocking on the door of death.

 

[I_go_in]

I passed out really fast, that much I do know. I had zero pain which is so weird because you t was always painful before. I think maybe doubling my rope up is what made this successful this time, if only I didn't decide to stand up. I will attempt this again over the weekend or next week. I live with someone and have a teen, so I need to wait for my next opportunity, when they are gone.

Have you ever had an experience with mind altering substances like drugs or alcohol? It must have been your first time losing consciousness huh?

 

[Baisley]

Hard to tell. If your feet were close enough to the floor, or your ladder, your SI may have kicked in and you stood up, loosening the tightness of the rope allowing you to breathe.

It's common for people to pee or poop when they die because all their muscles are relaxed, and you are no longer forcing to hold it in.

So it's a pretty good possibility you were knocking on the door of death.

I don't think it was my SI, I wasn't scared. I just woke up somehow and was all disoriented. I then stood up all confused and took the noose off.

Have you ever had an experience with mind altering substances like drugs or alcohol? It must have been your first time losing consciousness huh?

I have never in my life lost consciousness. I have drank alcohol but never went unconscious from alcohol. I don't do drugs.

 

[Exhausted546]

I have been trying to hang myself for the last couple of weeks now. I have had zero success until today. I have a thinner rope so I decided to double the rope up around my neck. I then hung from the top of my door dropping down on my little ladder. I then don't know what happened, I must of went unconscious for the first time ever. I woke up disoriented with a racing heart and I was wet, like I literally peed myself. Does this mean, I was close to death? I should have stayed all disoriented in the position that, I was in but I stood up and then took the noose off. The weird thing is everytime,I practiced hanging before with this rope it hurt, but today it didn't hurt at all. I am just kind of freaked out right now because I have never been unconscious before and hanging always seemed so difficult and painful. Today it all happened so fast and it didn't hurt. I am just trying to figure out if I was indeed cleaning close to death, if I didn't stand up.

This is giving me hope

 

[I_go_in]

I don't think it was my SI, I wasn't scared. I just woke up somehow and was all disoriented. I then stood up all confused and took the noose off.

I have never in my life lost consciousness. I have drank alcohol but never went unconscious from alcohol. I don't do drugs.

Yeah it's like being asleep. It's sort of weird if you have no frame of reference other than sleep but still. It's like doctors that put you under and are able to cut you up without you feeling it. Obviously you'd wake from sleep from pain like that but when your brain is totally gone you're just… it's all black…

 

[Baisley]

Yeah it's like being asleep. It's sort of weird if you have no frame of reference other than sleep but still. It's like doctors that put you under and are able to cut you up without you feeling it. Obviously you'd wake from sleep from pain like that but when your brain is totally gone you're just… it's all black…

So are you saying that you think, I was close to death? I had no pain at all..It literally did feel like a deep sleep, coming outta sedation. Disoriented, groggy, and then of course, I noticed, I was wet from peeing myself. It was all so weird but it was a peaceful feeling. I just got kinda scared after coming to and taking the noose off as I wasn't sure what exactly happened.

 

[Terrible_Life]

Was it partial or full hanging?

 

[I_go_in]

So are you saying that you think, I was close to death? I had no pain at all..It literally did feel like a deep sleep, coming outta sedation. Disoriented, groggy, and then of course, I noticed, I was wet from peeing myself. It was all so weird but it was a peaceful feeling. I just got kinda scared after coming to and taking the noose off as I wasn't sure what exactly happened.

Well, you go unconscious every night when you sleep so not really close to death. The idea is to die while unconscious. I would have to see a video of what happened to even hypothesize. Could have pinched the arteries for a few seconds and fell out then stood up idk. You still breathe as well when unconscious because it's a secondary limbic system instinct. The goal is to get into a state where you make yourself go unconscious and then skip all the unpleasant parts of dying while in that state. In this case while starving oxygen to the brain. You'd probably have to have had at least 20 seconds in that same position cutting off brain flow before you'd be close to death. And you wouldn't be able to type back to me if you had been without blood to the brain for a long time. So I would see it as you did the first part correct.

 

[Baisley]

This is giving me hope

I literally never even came close to being unconscious until I doubled the rope up. Maybe it was too thin before. IDK, but I was definitely unconscious this time.

This is giving me hope

 

[user4567]

I literally never even came close to being unconscious until I doubled the rope up. Maybe it was too thin before. IDK, but I was definitely unconscious this time.

I've been struggling with this method for months. Doubling up might just be the key for me to succeed. Is there any chance I could get a visual of how your setup looks for you to do this? It would be incredibly helpful.

 

[Worndown]

It sounds like you found your solution.
Do that again as full and...

Doubling up a thinner rope is fine. It will feel better. You got good compression.

Reports from others waking up match your "no pain" comments.
This is where doing it correctly pays off.

Congratulations!

 

[Baisley]

It sounds like you found your solution.
Do that again as full and...

Doubling up a thinner rope is fine. It will feel better. You got good compression.

Reports from others waking up match your "no pain" comments.
This is where doing it correctly pays off.

Congratulations!

I did something right that time. I have tried a few more times since then and I am not getting this done right again. It doesn't seem or feel the same as the first time did. Not sure if I screwed up my slip knot or if I need a new rope or what the problem is now. I suck at doing knots period and it took me forever just to get that one right. So now it seems like I made no progress at all.

 

[Worndown]

Keep practicing and note what does and does not work.
It is not lab experiments, but your "documentation" is equally important.

 

[Seaghost]

I will a I live with someone and have a teen, so I need to wait for my next opportunity, when they are gone.

So you're taking the risk that the teen will find you that way??

 

[stiarling]

Ive always believed that the thinner the ropethe better, 'cause it will apply more localized force. I don't know what I'm missing.

 

[wine is fine but]

Does this mean, I was close to death?

that all depends on what you mean
your last line does give some clarity in that respect, but

if you woke up fine with no brain damage, then you were no where near close to death
but as your last line questioned - if you didn't stand up, and went back unconscious, then you would certainly have passed away

most probably you are not asking about the actual situation itself, but if your method is going to work, if you do not wake up and then stand up - you probably already know that answer, so make sure you know exactly what you want before trying again

 

[Steph99]

I think you absolutely were close to death. I've had exactly the same experience of quickly slipping away and only righting myself at the very last moment. I was disoriented and had no idea where I was for at least 30 seconds.

 

[Worndown]

Ive always believed that the thinner the ropethe better, 'cause it will apply more localized force. I don't know what I'm missing.

Theory vs practice.
Test it.
It is not about pressure at that point but overall pressure.
Size brings comfort you deserve.