Venting It doesn’t make sense for me anymore

[itsmeagain]

I'm trying to be good but I always end up disappointing the people around me. All the friends I met outside of SS are drug addicts or abusive. I only made it this far with a dream that I am not even chasing anymore. I'm not good enough for the few people that love me.

I'm so sorry for failing the people that care about me. I wish someone would choose me, but I finally understand why nobody ever does.

There's a depression check to be functional in this world, and if you fail, the rest of your life will snowball.

I'm sorry for all that thought I was good enough to mean something to them

I failed as a person. I really did.

 

[hopeifindmyself]

What dreams are you not chasing anymore ?
What makes you think you failed people ?

 

[eupdplishlp]

I'm trying to be good but I always end up disappointing the people around me. All the friends I met outside of SS are drug addicts or abusive. I only made it this far with a dream that I am not even chasing anymore. I'm not good enough for the few people that love me.

I'm so sorry for failing the people that care about me. I wish someone would choose me, but I finally understand why nobody ever does.

There's a depression check to be functional in this world, and if you fail, the rest of your life will snowball.

I'm sorry for all that thought I was good enough to mean something to them

I failed as a person. I really did.

I'm also interested in what day dreams your not chasing anymore. could you also elaborate on what you mean by depression check of the world?