It Doesn't Get Better

[LittleNelson]

I've been dealing with severe depression and suicidal thoughts for more than 20 year. I made my only serious attempt about 15 years ago. Then I started taking anti-depressants which numbed me but the depression never went away. I always had this hope that things would get better but they never did. Now I have no friends, no money, and I can't even afford to keep taking my anti-depressants. I feel like I'm at the end of a long, dark road and there's no escape. So it definitely doesn't get better!

 

[SomewhatLoved]

Sorry to hear your story. When you were, for example, 10 years in did you think things would get better?

I think a lot of people worry they will look back after being this way for a long time and regret that it never got better.

 

[Lo$t95]

Sorry to hear your story. When you were, for example, 10 years in did you think things would get better?

I think a lot of people worry they will look back after being this way for a long time and regret that it never got better.

Yes regret assuming other people who were older knew something I didn't about finding meaning in life when from a young age I could never see or feel it.

 

[Ijustcantanymore]

That's the part they leave out...

"It gets better. For some people..."

 

[LittleNelson]

Sorry to hear your story. When you were, for example, 10 years in did you think things would get better?

I think a lot of people worry they will look back after being this way for a long time and regret that it never got better.

Yes I really thought it would get better which is why I kept living. But sadly I kept having bad luck and the depression never went away. Now I really wish I had just taken my life 20 years ago.

 

[sweetcreep]

i vent a lot in my notes app and i wrote something that i feel like most people would relate to. "it gets better before it gets worse." things always feel like they're getting a bit better until they inevitably crash and burn, leaving things even worse than before. only a few people really do get better. not everyone.

 

[FuneralCry]

It really sounds like you've suffered so much, it's just so cruel to me how there's all this suffering in existing. But anyway I wish you the best.

 

[divinemistress87]

It doesnt get better for a lot of people with treatment resistant depression sadly