dont really enjoy talking about it too often because i hate being in the position in life where this is the only rational option im left with. i'd much much rather be able to live a decent life and not have to talk/think about death, so talking about it just frustrates me and makes me think about everything thats brought me to this point.
i mean, yeah, i am on this site and it can be a good cope/comfort to talk abt just ending all the pain with others being in a similar place and sharing the pro-choice mindset, but its also something i dont indulge in too much as it can disturb me. a lot of it really comes down to the mood im in, sometimes im feeling extra depressed and can only think about death, and other times im still depressed, but would rather not clog my mind with "death death death" and attempt to cope. tbh i just want the whole suicide part to be over with rather than think and talk about it all the time.