Is there anything that would stop you from CTB?

[treestumpbootsneo]

If I knew I could safely get divorced and meet a furry compatible person, or my wife changed from being abusive and we could fix things, that would be enough

 

[divinemistress36]

Having a healthy brain

 

[We Are Angels]

No

 

[AuroraB]

3 million dollars would work. That would give me $8000/month for 30 more years (I'll be 92). That would be enough to not worry any more about housing, medical care, other bills. I think climate change will wipe out much of humanity before 30 years though.

 

[saunabliss]

3 million dollars would work. That would give me $8000/month for 30 more years (I'll be 92). That would be enough to not worry any more about housing, medical care, other bills. I think climate change will wipe much of humanity out before 30 years though.

Same. With enough money I can do whatever I want. It won't change my mind to CTB but money would prolong my life.

 

[Pryras]

Nothing would stop me entirely but if one of my animals got sick I would stick around and get them the care they needed.

 

[Sutter]

Love and a bit more heart.

Honestly though its just not where I am at, its a nice thought but thought it is.

Dreams are for dreamers and at death's table I see no one but death and I, when I wake it's just me.

 

[ruru_241]

a future with my dear.

i love him with all my heart and i desperately want a future with him, without him, im fully giving up because whats left without him !!!!! i cant handle another heartbreak at all. my last one was horrible and messy.. but i understand, it just hurted so much. i never want to feel that way again

 

[cosmic-realism]

Nothing..The question is not of "if",it is of "when"

 

[treestumpbootsneo]

Nothing..The question is not of "if",it is of "when"

Me too. I'm too old to fix things now, or start over. So it's literally just a fantasy "What if" scenario to me

 

[cosmic-realism]

Me too. I'm too old to fix things now, or start over. So it's literally just a fantasy "What if" scenario to me

I am not given a chance to make things right,it's been like this since I was born

 

[lnlybnny]

yeh but that's an utopic topic

 

[Forever Sleep]

Natural death.

Money would prolong my exit probably.

 

[midstarscream]

Surprisingly… no

 

[chester]

There is. It's actually the reason I'm still alive. Survival instinct. Other than that, I'm ready. I had a head CT recently, I'm waiting for a doctor to review it. I know it's unlikely they'll find anything serious, but I keep fantasizing about some disease relieving me of making the choice. That would be perfect.

 

[Wendigo]

yes, my ex- gf , enough money to leave the country where I currently live in.
Basically getting back the things that brought me to this place in the first place.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Yeah I would just need to get a girlfriend is all. I don't care if I'm supposed to work on myself first. I have already realized that the only thing that will even make me want to start on any measure of self improvement is that first step.

Too bad there's only a 1 in 14,000,605 chance of that happening though.

 

[attheend13]

Love and a bit more heart.

Honestly though its just not where I am at, its a nice thought but thought it is.

Dreams are for dreamers and at death's table I see no one but death and I, when I wake it's just me.

Is that something you're quoting? It's really quite lovely writing
Yes, hope would keep me here. Just hope that it could get better

 

[TrifoliumsFriend]

Gonna be honest, I'm revisiting this site out of curiosity as someone who did get better mentally and does not want to CBT anymore. Now, I still believe in pro-choice suicide philosophically, so I won't be preaching here. Anyways, I wrote months ago that what would change my mind is a change of philosophy and well, my philosophy on life has changed.

 

[Jeebo5021]

3 million dollars would work. That would give me $8000/month for 30 more years (I'll be 92). That would be enough to not worry any more about housing, medical care, other bills. I think climate change will wipe out much of humanity before 30 years though.

Just wondering if you factored in inflation? I don't want to be negative, but would $8000 really be enough for a month in 15 years time. It's just that I'm in the same position as you. I want to get to 3 million just so I can get out of the rat race and try to stop any chance of the ideations coming back.

If I knew I could safely get divorced and meet a furry compatible person, or my wife changed from being abusive and we could fix things, that would be enough

For me, I think all it would take is for someone to sit me down and say "your special, you matter to me, your worth something, don't you forget that". When you get treated like your worthless nuisance for so long, it becomes all you know. Do people even say that kind of stuff to anyone anymore though? I only ever hear that stuff in comfort ASMRs.

 

[Aglossa]

If I meet someone truly special, I'd like to think. However, I know this is just a wishful illusion. Nothing will ever change how I have felt basically my entire life.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I think that my brain itself would have to be changed so that I'm able to deal with life's demands easier and my brain would also have to be changed to be as ignorant about reality as pro lifers are

 

[vampire2002]

a magical cure for all my mental illnesses.

 

[Unknown21]

Money.

 

[Molasses2]

Boils down if the reason that drove me here is fixed. But that's impossible so a stronger mindset.

 

[Sutter]

Not a quote.

Im an odd duck. Never completed college, went for a bit, never got a degree. I have read a fair bit and could try to quote but mostly I look to focus and offer the best that I can at the time. I spent a fair amount of time getting to know a small bit of the world, was my job at the time that took me there. I saw real love and caring in a Turkish man's eyes wanting the best for his daughter, watched the Japanese live life with an insane amount of care and reverence, baffled by a basque woman who thought there was no good case for guns. I have lost one that was center to me through suicide in my early years. I have known good words and bad, as I sit here shedding a tear, and do my best to take sometime and care. These may be my last words, I may or may not have a comforting effect, but I feel they should be an honest cast of my heart on this blank paper and that is the least I should offer to any who spend their time reading an old mans ramblings.

Everytime I write, I try to respect, honor, and love the best that happened in my life as it is the least anyone who finds themselves here deserves.

Apologies for the length of response Wanted to be sure you knew it is not quotes, just one soul to another that reading is as important as saying.

*smile I tried to quote you though.

 

[SA1994EC]

The reasons I want to off myself used to be money and relationship. I was able to get rid of the desire/need to have any relationship with others. After that, money became the reason. But recently due to the lack of care of my body, I got irreversible physical damages. So, no...

 

[FuneralCry]

For me personally under no circumstances would I ever wish to suffer in this cruel, torturous existence, instead I just want to never exist again, the thought of suffering until old age in this existence I never would have chosen is so horrific to me, I'd never wish for that rather I just wish for peace. I find it so painful to simply be conscious, non-existence is all I see as desirable, I'd always prefer to not exist as after all if I'm dead then I cannot suffer in any way yet there's no limit as to how unbearable this existence can get which I just saw as a terrible, tragic mistake in the first place, for me existence itself really is the true problem, it's something I'd never wish for and as long as I exist I'll only hope for death, I wish to just fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep and never suffer again.

 

[AuroraB]

Just wondering if you factored in inflation? I don't want to be negative, but would $8000 really be enough for a month in 15 years time. It's just that I'm in the same position as you. I want to get to 3 million just so I can get out of the rat race and try to stop any chance of the ideations coming back.

For me, I think all it would take is for someone to sit me down and say "your special, you matter to me, your worth something, don't you forget that". When you get treated like your worthless nuisance for so long, it becomes all you know. Do people even say that kind of stuff to anyone anymore though? I only ever hear that stuff in comfort ASMRs.

good point about inflation. i can't imagine ever having enough $ to live to be 80 (18 years from now).

 

[Sutter]

Is that something you're quoting? It's really quite lovely writing
Yes, hope would keep me here. Just hope that it could get better

Technically challenged in some respects there is an answer to your question above. I did not ignore/miss you, so you know.