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satoporu

satoporu

Student
Jan 24, 2020
122
If I could make reverse time and change every missed opportunity and mistake I've done.

funny, i've thought about this a thousand times over the years. and i always end up with a conclusion that i shouldn't have been born at all. that would definitely take care of things.
 
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Dinosaur

Member
Jan 18, 2020
33
Become a social and happy guy just like I was before I was treated with Palmitate Paliperidone (Xeplion), a docor ruined my life.
 
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SimplyTopHat

SimplyTopHat

Student
Mar 20, 2019
163
I wish life was easier... every day I have to muster all the energy I have to get out of bed, &for what? For my mental health to beat me into submission? Or better still for my physical body to betray me?

When I was younger, I thought moving out of my parent's home would make me happy, &it didn't.

When I went to college I thought things would be better &instead I was asssulted and abused my SO for years.

When I moved out of one province &into another I thought things would get better. Instead I was bullied by my colleagues &called all sorts of awful things that I became agoraphobic and tried to kill myself SEVERAL times.

Now, decades after all this pain began, &I'm seeking professional help (again), going to group therapy &went back to school to try &make something of myself. All things I thought would make me feel better, and still nothing.

So when you ask what would it take to change my mind... a miracle. Heh, &I'm not religious.
 
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jitendrabagaria786@

Student
May 19, 2022
161
Yes, money lots of money
 
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waiting4thenextbus

Lost
May 30, 2022
66
I know this for a fact. $10 million USD from an anonymous donor would make me stay alive. I'd honestly give it my best shot with that money and help others too. I'd be able to work on my life's problems with a hope in hell at fixing them. I'd also not have to work, which helps, because having to work is a huge contributing factor to me being suicidal. Not only this but my entire family and friendship circle would never have to work or suffer financially. I'd be able to travel the world with my time left on this planet, exploring the world we were born on. Unfortunately that type of life is not for me, only for the rich oligarch. Hence why I will be catching the bus this year.
 
mandyjohnuk

mandyjohnuk

Specialist
Jul 6, 2021
388
2 new knees and no pain which is endless every day.
 
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hellispink

hellispink

poisonous
May 26, 2022
1,234
Financial stability. Being able to work from home as a writer. It would allow me to be good with my social anxiety and also I would pay my debts . As long as I didn't have to face or work along other people.
 
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WorthlessTrash

WorthlessTrash

Worthless
Apr 19, 2022
2,431
Being born female all along or being able to be put in a young female body with no surgery. HRT, etc. Let me have a young happy life.

Since none of these are possible for me, there is a 0% chance of me not CTBing in the future.
 
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Advisor321

Student
Jun 3, 2022
118
Yes, time machine and going 2 years back.
Not making such a terrible mistakes that I have done...
 
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ineverlived

Member
May 31, 2022
73
to live in the country i want
a beautiful face
social skills
money

i don't know if these make me happy hundred percent but i guess I'd give life a chance.
 
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Siterfau

Member
Mar 7, 2022
46
Being rich and having the assurance that society won't collapse in the next few decades.
 
Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
21,405
Easy: A girlfriend. Not gonna happen though.
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,041
No, there is absolutely nothing. I would still want to die no matter what my life circumstances are. I simply prefer the sound of non existence to any kind of life. I personally see life as being so pointless and I am horrified that life is even a thing in the first place. I have no interest in living in such a cruel and unfair world where there is no limit as to how much we can suffer.
 
Dizzylady80

Dizzylady80

Experienced
Nov 5, 2020
226
Yeah! If my pain went away I doubt I'd be suicidal anymore, I'd need some recovery time and a lot more therapy but I definitely think that would do it. Another one is financial security, this one is a bit less sure-fire but I think even with the pain I'm in, if I knew I'd be okay financially and didn't have to worry about not being able to work to pay bills/avoid homelessness I think there's a good chance I'd be okay
 

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