Help is there anything I can take to numb the pain of living?

[aureliaaurit]

i dont know, i'm getting so desperate but i dont have the money or even my own place to actually end it.
is there anything i can take to make myself feel any better? living day to day is agony.
I know some people say that just going out is enough to make you feel better, but i know i wouldn't be able to keep stuff like that up, it'd just be like a rollercoaster; slowly trudging up then flying back down.

 

[endofline2010]

You can turn yourself into a zombie on psych meds or opioids. Both easily and readily available on DNMs. You can make yourself feel like superman on Adderall and meth (to a degree) again, both easily available on DNMs. I guess cost is relative, but all can be had pretty cheaply too.

But... this is a dangerous path. Whatever drugs you take will make you feel better than you do now. All drugs create a resistance, which means that if it takes one pill to feel good now, it will take two, then three... You get the point.