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letmeseethedeath

letmeseethedeath

catching the bus
Aug 4, 2018
478
it is killing me slowly, day by day, i attend university and i study radiology and i always go with a cap but people look at me so weird
i'm a female with very several bald spots and very several years of therapy but i suffer from depression,OCD, and a lot of pain called life and i want to ctb so bad but for some reason i'm a coward i don't have the courage to do it
i just stay here waiting to lose lucidity and finally ctb
i'm sending hugs to y'all
you are not alone
 
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FoxSauce

FoxSauce

Emotional unstable like and IKEA table
Aug 23, 2024
613
yeah I think I do. I've pulled my hair since 10th grade. I still have places with short hair. I sometimes do it on purpose or not realizing it plus idk why if the hair doesnt feel right it must pulled out.

they don't feel perfect...away they go. Idk of thats classified at that exactly it also happens when im stressed or upset.
 
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psp3000

psp3000

Enlightened
May 20, 2023
1,587
only with my eyelashes

but I can relate as someone who has a moderate or sometimes severe skin picking problem/dermatillomania which also causes strange stares and a lot of rude and sometimes inappropriate questions

have had it for years, the worst time is when it feels like I can't stop or like my hand is doing its own thing and each time my hands make contact with any part of myself it searches for imperfections to probably pick until they are "gone" and the cycle repeats leaving something else behind to remove
 
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letmeseethedeath

letmeseethedeath

catching the bus
Aug 4, 2018
478
yeah I think I do. I've pulled my hair since 10th grade. I still have places with short hair. I sometimes do it on purpose or not realizing it plus idk why if the hair doesnt feel right it must pulled out.

they don't feel perfect...away they go. Idk of thats classified at that exactly it also happens when im stressed or upset.
same, and i do it with some white hair, it's really destroying my social life
only with my eyelashes

but I can relate as someone who has a moderate or sometimes severe skin picking problem/dermatillomania which also causes strange stares and a lot of rude and sometimes inappropriate questions

have had it for years, the worst time is when it feels like I can't stop or like my hand is doing its own thing and each time my hands make contact with any part of myself it searches for imperfections to probably pick until they are "gone" and the cycle repeats leaving something else behind to remove
same with thricotillomania, i'm so sorry we are living this bad life
 
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FoxSauce

FoxSauce

Emotional unstable like and IKEA table
Aug 23, 2024
613
Makes life unbearable. It's like a itch idk
 
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L9my

L9my

they are dead, for they have no dreams
Nov 22, 2024
1,068
i've never said that i have because it really feels like a big medical term and what if i don't and stuff.

I have pulled out my hair for a while now (from 8-9 years old).
I always had an afro so plenty of hair, but it was really embarassing to leave an area and see hair all over the floor, or look around my room and see hair really all over the floor.
And it'd be really weird to not even realise i was doing it until like after a conversation had ended (cause the conversation was stressful and i guess that's what got me to do it)

I found a lifesaver in braiding my hair, the frequency has dropped to like one strand of hair a month so my hair is gonna be braided forever from now on.
 

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