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wantingdignity
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- Apr 5, 2025
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My ex keeps sending me poems about how sad he is that he dumped me. The last one he sent was poetically describing feeling doubts about us during our one year anniversary. We were together for 8 years.
I tried blocking him, but I still receive them in spam. I'm low on storage space and have to empty my spam a lot. He is using my spam folder like his personal diary and as a way to see if he can get a response from me. He still has not mailed me his copy of my apartment key. I also had to make my Instagram account private because he used a different, unblocked account to message me.
He dumped me for being suicidal. It was fully his choice. I immediately went inpatient because I was already actively suicidal before he dumped me. I told him to leave me the fuck alone. I miss him so much and it's so confusing and frustrating.
Why the fuck would he email me so many times about missing me, but also that he had doubts about us 7 years ago??
Why the fuck did I forgive him for acts of abuse?? Why did he work so hard to convince me to forgive him and "lock in" to our relationship, only to dump me when I came to him about being suicidal?
I fucking thought he was the one. I thought everyone had their issues. I thought he was just slowly unlearning his trauma. I feel like an unlovable fool.
I tried blocking him, but I still receive them in spam. I'm low on storage space and have to empty my spam a lot. He is using my spam folder like his personal diary and as a way to see if he can get a response from me. He still has not mailed me his copy of my apartment key. I also had to make my Instagram account private because he used a different, unblocked account to message me.
He dumped me for being suicidal. It was fully his choice. I immediately went inpatient because I was already actively suicidal before he dumped me. I told him to leave me the fuck alone. I miss him so much and it's so confusing and frustrating.
Why the fuck would he email me so many times about missing me, but also that he had doubts about us 7 years ago??
Why the fuck did I forgive him for acts of abuse?? Why did he work so hard to convince me to forgive him and "lock in" to our relationship, only to dump me when I came to him about being suicidal?
I fucking thought he was the one. I thought everyone had their issues. I thought he was just slowly unlearning his trauma. I feel like an unlovable fool.